#68
I really don't know what to do anymore. Everynight before I go to bed, I hope that I don't wake up. I have lost my passion for life.
Seriously, I think Brian ruined things for me. He gave me a false sense of security. He made me think that I was okay, that I had someone who loved me, that someone would always be there. I was fucking used to this, and it felt wonderful. Without warning, Brian took this away from me. He says he does not have one shred of love for me in his heart. He tells me no one will want me now.
I need to get away.
Seriously, I think Brian ruined things for me. He gave me a false sense of security. He made me think that I was okay, that I had someone who loved me, that someone would always be there. I was fucking used to this, and it felt wonderful. Without warning, Brian took this away from me. He says he does not have one shred of love for me in his heart. He tells me no one will want me now.
I need to get away.