#65
So I am leaving for Chicago tomorrow. I'm taking a train and I have $500 spending money, plus money for the hotel. It's going to be sweet.
Oh man, I am really fucking tired. Fernando called me at 7am to talk this morning...not that I mind, but geez, that was early.
So I've decided that I need to distance myself from Brian for awhile. I really can't be his friend right now...it's too hard to look at him and know he doesn't care for me, and that he's not my boyfriend. I need time apart until I get over him, which will probably be like...months. It's going to be so hard not to pick up the phone and call him or stop by his house, or talk to him online. I just wish it was a month ago, when things were fine. I really never thought this would happen. I never thought that Brian would break my heart. I love him so much.
Oh man, I am really fucking tired. Fernando called me at 7am to talk this morning...not that I mind, but geez, that was early.
So I've decided that I need to distance myself from Brian for awhile. I really can't be his friend right now...it's too hard to look at him and know he doesn't care for me, and that he's not my boyfriend. I need time apart until I get over him, which will probably be like...months. It's going to be so hard not to pick up the phone and call him or stop by his house, or talk to him online. I just wish it was a month ago, when things were fine. I really never thought this would happen. I never thought that Brian would break my heart. I love him so much.