Jihaku
You know when you read/watch/listen to something that really makes you think and makes you want to really become a better person? Well I get that everytime I read Jihaku. However, this time it seems to have spoken to me more than ever. There was a certain couple of paragraphs that really stood out to me. So apt.
So no matter how much I am hurting inside, I need to actually stitch up the wound rather than just licking them on occasions, which leaves me hurting again after I stop. The only way to move on is by stitching them up. It can just be a long process, it can be short, it all depends on how deep and big the wouds are, the deeper and bigger, the longer it will take. But you need to make sure that you clean the wound first so that it doesn't get infected. Sometimes after you have stitched up the wound, it may leave a scar that you are to carry through the duration of your life, or it may completely vanish without a trace to be forgotten. But if it does scar, then don't despise it, take pride in that little mark upon your body, for that is what you look at and show people and say, "I did it, I survived, here is my proof that I am strong." I think that is how we should live.
So now onto another note! This time next week, I'll be on the coach down to London. It's just less than two weeks now until I see Gackt. Those who really know me will understand as to just how much this concert means to me. I know I'm going to be an emotional wreck, but I think this will be good for me, this might be the release that I've been looking for.
I now have Gackt's lyrics tattooed to me, Sakurasou to be exact. It's a song I listened to repeatedly last year after a bad point. I think it helped carry me through. It's strange what power music has, I've always been fascinated by it. Just the way notes are strung together and the words that accompany the notes can make your mood change so rapidly. Music is so powerful, it has the ability to make you cry, dance, be happy...everything. There are songs which I listen to and I cry, and when the next song comes on, I'm smiling again and feeling like I should be dancing.
I want to love life.
Mana
So no matter how much I am hurting inside, I need to actually stitch up the wound rather than just licking them on occasions, which leaves me hurting again after I stop. The only way to move on is by stitching them up. It can just be a long process, it can be short, it all depends on how deep and big the wouds are, the deeper and bigger, the longer it will take. But you need to make sure that you clean the wound first so that it doesn't get infected. Sometimes after you have stitched up the wound, it may leave a scar that you are to carry through the duration of your life, or it may completely vanish without a trace to be forgotten. But if it does scar, then don't despise it, take pride in that little mark upon your body, for that is what you look at and show people and say, "I did it, I survived, here is my proof that I am strong." I think that is how we should live.
So now onto another note! This time next week, I'll be on the coach down to London. It's just less than two weeks now until I see Gackt. Those who really know me will understand as to just how much this concert means to me. I know I'm going to be an emotional wreck, but I think this will be good for me, this might be the release that I've been looking for.
I now have Gackt's lyrics tattooed to me, Sakurasou to be exact. It's a song I listened to repeatedly last year after a bad point. I think it helped carry me through. It's strange what power music has, I've always been fascinated by it. Just the way notes are strung together and the words that accompany the notes can make your mood change so rapidly. Music is so powerful, it has the ability to make you cry, dance, be happy...everything. There are songs which I listen to and I cry, and when the next song comes on, I'm smiling again and feeling like I should be dancing.
I want to love life.
Mana