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hmm...so lately things have been a little..uhhh can i say insane?
theres so much i need to get out..but you know no one listens & i cant trust anyone.everyone says they wont say anything,but everyone ends up findingout. it sucks. cuase i have everything locked up inside of me and i just need to scream really loud to let it all out. spring is finally here. too bad im on lock down. things have been looking good, at my dads. my moms..well..thats a real different story. wow.its like 70 out side. days like these nothing else would matter, i would be with friends and have a great time, not worring about anything..my mind is clear..those are the days i miss..
This whole entire weekend was just a reminder to me on how vunerable I really am. How high my expectations, &hopes get. How strong that little piece of string called "jealousy" is getting to me lately. How weak my heart,my respect for myself &desicions have been getting lately. i just wish i could figure out myself and find out what is wrong with me.
&the answer would be the wonderful Depression mode. i wish i could just run away and come back when everything is better. but they say you cant run away from your problems. but in this case...its allowed.
&&me and mike are good..we dont talk as much as we used to because we both have different things and life styles..in a way i feel like we are fading..but theres me being paranoid again..so..yeahh..
well im out..comment or im deleting you, and making it friends only..
xoxogette..