APPLICATION ::
Character Name: Parsee Mizuhashi
Character Series: Touhou Project
Character Age: Hundreds of years old, can pass for 19.
Background: Touhou Project Wiki~
Personality: The first and most definitive thing you need to know about Parsee is that a lifetime of jealousy made her what she is, which is an unhappy, spiteful person sharp around the edges and not much inclined toward charity or even simple politeness.
Years of watching happy people with happy lives pass her by has left Parsee, who could never have what they did, with a crippling low self-esteem. She believes that she has next to no good qualities, and who the hell wants to be around someone like that? Parsee wouldn't, and since she assumes that everyone else feels the same, she thus believes that she's unwanted everywhere she goes. Unfortunately, this is ultimately a self-fulfilling prophecy; Parsee actively tries to keep others at a distance, either by hiding away somewhere to sulk or turning the full force of her prickly personality on those daring to bother her. And sometimes? That second thing entails physically lashing out to drive them away, whether it's off her bridge or out of her way. Because Parsee's angry and Parsee's bitter and oh, Parsee doesn't shrink from expressing either of those things.
She seems bound and determined to keep herself to herself and remain lonely, even though that's honestly the last thing she wants. She fully understands the consequences of her actions despite having a dubious grasp on sanity at times (I mean, c'mon, making up reasons to attack people...), and constantly struggles to be content with the price she pays for her behavior. The key word being struggles; even though she's often a huge bitch and tells herself that's the only way she "deserves" to act and be treated as in return, it never quiiiite works as a form of denial. She wants to like and be liked too much. But Parsee doesn't know what else to do, really, and it's not like the hateful way she sees herself allows for anything other than what she's always done. So she keeps trying to reaffirm the notion that she's heartless, keeps seeking the notoriety and isolation such a reputation brings, and tries just as hard to choke down the ultimate results with a satisfied smile.
Yet for all her effort, Parsee sucks at being genuinely cruel; she just doesn't have the spark to truly enjoy causing harm for harm's sake. Sure, she'll throw danmaku at you until the cows come home. She'll snark and snap and generally make a big show of not giving a good goddamn, but at the end of the day what Parsee falls back on isn't twisted torture. Far from it- she singles out the positive qualities she sees in other people and professes how jealous those things make her. She attempts to make it sound like an insult, but the nature of the comment causes that to fall flat on its face.
Really, it can almost be seen as a type of self-punishment, as if she's reminding herself of all the qualities she doesn't possess....and can never hope to, either. Or even, maybe, a roundabout attempt to be nice; it's not hard to guess why Parsee would be extremely awkward around others, even those she might have known for a very long time. It could also be a deeply misguided cry for attention, since what Parsee needs and longs for most of all is some positive influence, be it friends or family or something more. She's not a horrible or worthless person, whatever she tells herself and tries to believe, and maybe she can grow to accept and work toward a better sense of self-worth if someone broke through her (admittedly numerous and stubborn) defenses.
Abilities: Her official power is the ability to "manipulate jealousy", which means just what it says: she can control the jealousy in anyone's heart on a whim, to intensify or lessen as she sees fit. She can also fly and utilize danmaku, Gensokyo's form of magical combat: in essence, a flood of concussive lasers.
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