contemplative

[bridgeswillfall]

i realized today that i've let myself get in too deep, have feelings i tried to push back so now what's left....there's still confusion over him, i never know what he's thinking which is hard for me, he's still really hard to read and i can't tell if this is just a way for him to pass the time, or to make me a "memory" he keeps telling me he doesn't want to be one of my regrets which unless he turns out like past situations he could never be. it seems sometimes that it's so easy for him to talk or be around other people than with me...especially when we're out and about with everyone else and i'm not used to that. we're so different and it just makes me second guess everything.
there are times when i question myself and the situation but i do know this...i think it'll be hard to say goodbye