April 29th, 1983
It's nearly two days later and thinks are starting to sink in a little bit.
Sort of, because I'm still not really sure what to make of that match. It was... unlike anything I've ever played in before. Tristram and Joey both got ejected. Grace got injured. We had three reserves come in. Fouls, penalties, trash talking, pushing and shoving... my voice is gone from shouting (like, it actually hurts to talk right now). I just- I don't know. I haven't really talked to anyone since that match ended, and I didn't go to dinner yesterday. I guess I need some space.
I don't know if it was a good match. We lost. We had a bit of bad luck and some questionable calls, but... we still lost. It wasn't the note I wanted to end my Hogwarts career on. I did my best to keep us all together and I got some goals (along with a few choice bruises) but it wasn't enough and I can't help but feel that I let the team down.
I still haven't figured out who should be Captain next year, either, and sometimes I feel like I'm never going to make a decision on that. The match helped put some favours in some people's book, but it's just so close. I can't help but feel like I'll upset someone (or several someones). Did Clive have as difficult a time with this as I'm having, I wonder? Or Dee?
I really don't feel well and I really don't want to head to class in the morning but now that Quidditch is over, technically, what else can I do with my time? I have to sit those bloody NEWTs and I would sort of like not to fail everything. But since I've put all my time and energy into Quidditch I feel like I've sort of screwed myself over in that department.
I know our matches and things are over for the year, but the pitch is still ours during the same times, so if anyone wants some extra flying time or a pick-up match or whatever, I am still going to be out on the pitch. If you want to take time for revision or sleeping or whatever, that's totally okay and I won't hold it against you!