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"Take prophecies and dreams seriously as you optimistically visualize and then manifest your future.
This card leaning to the right shows a partnership that relies on material resources and success where the core of the right formula is maintaining good communication.
The card in the house of Life Aspirations is how you control and define your life drives and the worldly honors, wealth and social standing that you create. This present situation works perfectly for you, but beware of becoming too set in your ways and, therefore, unable to move to the next stage.
The Tower upside down shows that you havent yet realized that the source of current tensions is inside of you, rather than a result of some cosmic fate. Taking responsibility for instinctive reactions is a good starting point in turning toward balance.
This card leaning to the right shows your partner is ready for a crisis to be confronted, and resolution, although uncomfortable, will be better than hanging onto what exists."
Life has been so good lately. I am finally breathing deep breaths and smiling up at the sun and dancing and loving on Josh. When I'm happy, the world is a different place.
Trying conversations lead to better realizations and understanding eachother's intentions.
I think I might have had to move back here to find myself again. I got to live a glorified, fantastically fun life out in LA, but I was starting to lose my focus and passion. I didn't even enjoy music anymore, let alone want to have a career using my instrument.
How did I get so off course? Doesn't matter, the fact is that now I'm back in gear. I've found a great voice teaching job, at an amazing, innovative studio, and my boss is also my mentor-and hero. She's achieved so much and is so good at what she does, and I get to study and work under her. Not to mention, she's the nicest lady ever and is a spiritually positive person to be around.
I taught my first voice lesson yesterday, and I loved it. It was a challenge-my student was 7 and had never really sung before. She couldn't even tell me what bands or singers she liked, let alone think of a song to sing for me. But after a few easy exercises and some giggling, we connected. I took her back to our music library and we picked out some Demi Lovato, Miley Cyrus, and High School Musical songs for her. Then she started getting really excited and remembered how much she loves Taylor Swift and Sara Bareilles. This is gonna be fun. I asked what her dream was, and she bursted out "AMERICAN IDOL!!" So innocent. I can't wait to keep working with her.
I've been spending a lot of good time with my family, and I've gotten to reconnect with some of my best friends ever, the ones I left behind for 4 years. I'm back! And I'm so glad I am.
I was meditating the other night, and had the strongest, most emotional visualization I've ever had. It was life-walking down an endless strip of stars off the boulevard. Every friend I've ever met stood on the side of the road at their appropriate time stop, waving and surrounded by the things that represented the good times. Juliana stood there like a gypsy, belly dancing and wavin "Hey girl Hey!!" After about 5 minutes of that walk, the boulevard ended and we were at a beautiful field of yellow daisy's and light green grass. It was paradise, and Josh met me there and we just walked on. I waved goodbye to the boulevard and then the vision stopped. It was such an intense look back at my life thus far, and I was just bawling the whole time. But not in a 'lying on my bed in fetal position crying', it was me, sitting crosslegged hands relaxed on my knees, smiling with tears running down my cheeks. Accepting and acknowleding what I was feeling.
Life has finally clicked for me here, and after a ton of emotional breakdowns and physical renovations, we're ready to move forward happily. Things are going to be okay!