Leads are finally turning up on Tsengs whereabouts
In the first stroke of good luck we have had since Tseng mysteriously walked out on the Turks several weeks ago A sighting of him has come to our attention. Apparently while on duty somewhere in the Wutai area that SOLIDER Zack spotted him. This is probably the best news I have heard all week. We cannot be sure that he is still near where the SOLIDER saw him but there is still a strong possibility that he is or that there will be clues as to where we can find him.
Before I send off the Turks to Wutai there are still a few things left to wrap up here. No need to run off without being as prepared as we can be. As of right now there is no telling what we will encounter once we reach this location. Whether Tseng was lead away against his will or not it will be foolish to think that it will be easy to get him back.
As for who will be coming on this mission I would prefer to be at full strength with all of my fellow Turks there to face whatever it is we will meet in Wutai but I feel that due to recent circumstances concerning the government that it would be best to leave behind our newest recruit, Mahaado. He has expressed remorse over his inability to assess the situation properly concerning Tseng when he originally left and thus I feel he might fight me somewhat over this decision. I, on my part, will try to convince him that I find no fault in his actions on that day. He has no need to stress over the matter any more than he has already. His concern at the moment should be to stay out of the clutches of the government. They will not get him back again, I swear to this.
On the other hand I feel that this mission might do Reno alot of good. He has been through alot recently and something more along the lines of what he considers normal would give him a chance to get away from the more distressing things that he has had to deal with as of late. In light of his recent injuries, which I feel have yet to have proper time to heal, I will keep a close eye on him to ensure that he is alright. This in no way means that I do not believe that he cannot take care of himself or do his job properly. It is actually quite the opposite, I just wish to ensure that as little harm comes to him as possible. I will of course always look out for the safety of all those under my leadership. A job well done may be our most important rule to follow, but there is always a way to accomplish this without taking unnecessary risks.
The recent revelations about Reno's past have been most unsettling to me. The worst part has been how little I feel I can actually do about them. Reno is my best friend, I care about him more than I have had for anyone in my life. It hasn't been easy for me to just sit back and do noting in things that concern him. As temporary leader of the Turks I cannot play favorites and must keep a level head at all times. In the recent rescue operation to retrieve both him and Mahaado I found it difficult to do just that. Somehow I managed to pull it off though. It makes me a little worried about how things will be on our mission to save Tseng. Hopefully having him back and in one piece will calm my nerves and I will not be so worried as I was on the last mission.
I feel I ask too much of Reno when I prod him for details of what is causing him grief only to find out things that I know he has not told another soul. It makes me feel terrible that I cannot do anything more than listen to what he feels he needs to say out loud. I wish I could do more for him...
His opening up of his past has been another problem for me as well. His memories are especially jarring to me as it has set in motion in my mind my own unpleasant past. It has not been what Reno has gone though but it has inadvertently made me remember things which I refuse to let myself think about.
Not all is bad right now, and I must push aside all my negative thinking about things I cannot do anything about. Focusing on what good I can do will greatly improve my mood and get Tseng back here that much quicker and take away the added stress of his job away from me. When that happens I think that that things will return to normal and the problem I have been facing lately will be taken care of.
Before I send off the Turks to Wutai there are still a few things left to wrap up here. No need to run off without being as prepared as we can be. As of right now there is no telling what we will encounter once we reach this location. Whether Tseng was lead away against his will or not it will be foolish to think that it will be easy to get him back.
As for who will be coming on this mission I would prefer to be at full strength with all of my fellow Turks there to face whatever it is we will meet in Wutai but I feel that due to recent circumstances concerning the government that it would be best to leave behind our newest recruit, Mahaado. He has expressed remorse over his inability to assess the situation properly concerning Tseng when he originally left and thus I feel he might fight me somewhat over this decision. I, on my part, will try to convince him that I find no fault in his actions on that day. He has no need to stress over the matter any more than he has already. His concern at the moment should be to stay out of the clutches of the government. They will not get him back again, I swear to this.
On the other hand I feel that this mission might do Reno alot of good. He has been through alot recently and something more along the lines of what he considers normal would give him a chance to get away from the more distressing things that he has had to deal with as of late. In light of his recent injuries, which I feel have yet to have proper time to heal, I will keep a close eye on him to ensure that he is alright. This in no way means that I do not believe that he cannot take care of himself or do his job properly. It is actually quite the opposite, I just wish to ensure that as little harm comes to him as possible. I will of course always look out for the safety of all those under my leadership. A job well done may be our most important rule to follow, but there is always a way to accomplish this without taking unnecessary risks.
The recent revelations about Reno's past have been most unsettling to me. The worst part has been how little I feel I can actually do about them. Reno is my best friend, I care about him more than I have had for anyone in my life. It hasn't been easy for me to just sit back and do noting in things that concern him. As temporary leader of the Turks I cannot play favorites and must keep a level head at all times. In the recent rescue operation to retrieve both him and Mahaado I found it difficult to do just that. Somehow I managed to pull it off though. It makes me a little worried about how things will be on our mission to save Tseng. Hopefully having him back and in one piece will calm my nerves and I will not be so worried as I was on the last mission.
I feel I ask too much of Reno when I prod him for details of what is causing him grief only to find out things that I know he has not told another soul. It makes me feel terrible that I cannot do anything more than listen to what he feels he needs to say out loud. I wish I could do more for him...
His opening up of his past has been another problem for me as well. His memories are especially jarring to me as it has set in motion in my mind my own unpleasant past. It has not been what Reno has gone though but it has inadvertently made me remember things which I refuse to let myself think about.
Not all is bad right now, and I must push aside all my negative thinking about things I cannot do anything about. Focusing on what good I can do will greatly improve my mood and get Tseng back here that much quicker and take away the added stress of his job away from me. When that happens I think that that things will return to normal and the problem I have been facing lately will be taken care of.