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I need to start doing more activities. Staying indoors during the weekday is making me bored of myself and super duper lazy and weak (from no workouts).
On another topic - I made a friend recently. Wooh biiiig surprise, being as there are people all over this base that I can make friends with. ;)
Anyways, he's fairly nice. Sometimes it's a bit awkward talking to him, since we have such differing opinions on 'fun' and life and our interests. I really enjoy the fact that he wants to eat dinner with me at the chow hall each day. That's a great way to get to know people - why haven't I thought about doing this with my friends before?! Genius!
Buuuuuuuuuuut. I think he's doing it because he wants to be more than 'just friends.' It's something I'm always afraid of, because I don't want to feel uncomfortable with him and I don't want to let him down. I'm thinking that he and I will have a one-on-one talk some time soon so I can clearly establish some boundaries in our relationship. While he is incredibly INCREDIBLY handsome, I am not attracted to his personality. Thus I find him attractive, but am not attracted to him. He seems too self-aware of his appearance and flaunts it a bit. I think he's honestly a really nice guy, but he's built up a lot of insecurities in life. Once he gets rid of those, he can really let loose and be a super fun guy without worrying about what others think about him. Despite his cocky grins and flattering compliments towards me, I feel like he is very insecure in himself and needs reassurance from his friends. I wish he would break out of that surfacy shell and be the awesome guy I know he can be!
I have to watch out, though. I have discovered that I tend to be a friend who likes to help people too much. After a while, it appears that I am condescending and above my friends in status, as "I" have no problems. I guess I get too caught up in trying to help others that I never ask for help myself. Well... I do... but not often, and usually from a very select few: my parents and a few of my super-close friends... but mostly just from my parents.
I need to stop eating so much chocolate.
Man, I wish I didn't love food so much. I wish I could think of food as merely a necessity to survive. Then I wouldn't be having this weight issue and feeling so uncomfortable in my own body. DARN YOU, SELF-CONTROL! O_O
On another topic - I made a friend recently. Wooh biiiig surprise, being as there are people all over this base that I can make friends with. ;)
Anyways, he's fairly nice. Sometimes it's a bit awkward talking to him, since we have such differing opinions on 'fun' and life and our interests. I really enjoy the fact that he wants to eat dinner with me at the chow hall each day. That's a great way to get to know people - why haven't I thought about doing this with my friends before?! Genius!
Buuuuuuuuuuut. I think he's doing it because he wants to be more than 'just friends.' It's something I'm always afraid of, because I don't want to feel uncomfortable with him and I don't want to let him down. I'm thinking that he and I will have a one-on-one talk some time soon so I can clearly establish some boundaries in our relationship. While he is incredibly INCREDIBLY handsome, I am not attracted to his personality. Thus I find him attractive, but am not attracted to him. He seems too self-aware of his appearance and flaunts it a bit. I think he's honestly a really nice guy, but he's built up a lot of insecurities in life. Once he gets rid of those, he can really let loose and be a super fun guy without worrying about what others think about him. Despite his cocky grins and flattering compliments towards me, I feel like he is very insecure in himself and needs reassurance from his friends. I wish he would break out of that surfacy shell and be the awesome guy I know he can be!
I have to watch out, though. I have discovered that I tend to be a friend who likes to help people too much. After a while, it appears that I am condescending and above my friends in status, as "I" have no problems. I guess I get too caught up in trying to help others that I never ask for help myself. Well... I do... but not often, and usually from a very select few: my parents and a few of my super-close friends... but mostly just from my parents.
I need to stop eating so much chocolate.
Man, I wish I didn't love food so much. I wish I could think of food as merely a necessity to survive. Then I wouldn't be having this weight issue and feeling so uncomfortable in my own body. DARN YOU, SELF-CONTROL! O_O