Confused as Always
Chaz said to me that I'm not really into girls or guys. Can this be true? Hmmn. I know that what I see is often completely different from what others see in me. So maybe I am? Or maybe I just confuse the hell out of people. Eh. Well I can say for certian that I am NOT attracted to girls. But guys? Well yeah, I can find many of them very attractive... but I don't think of them often as "Ooooh. I want to date them!"
Ok, so I did at one point, but I'm slowly moving away from that. Probably because when opportunities actually arise for the dating scene, I shy away. I guess I enjoy dating in the abstract but not in real life? Or maybe I just haven't been asked out by someone with whom I would 100% say yes to. Heh! I've been directly asked out by guys a total of 2 times (I don't count the time I was asked out online by 'JJ' from computer camp. I was just being nice to him and trying to help him through a rejection of a girl he liked when he asked me. Meh. I refused.
And that's another thing I dislike about dating - the refusal. I don't want to hurt people, but I think of the practicalities of dating a certian someone and I go "Naahh"
I also have a fear of being a person who accepts so as not to hurt people that I care about. I hear it's bad to do that, because it only hurts the other person even more. So I'll try not to do that.
Looks like I'll be the old maid with 10 cats at age 90!
But hey, I love cats, so it works out. =^.^=
Just so long as I have old people friend(s) who visit me every now and then. ^____^
Mmmn. Livejournal. It's one of the only places Sarah gets to be angsty in. Not too angsty, mind you!
Ok, so I did at one point, but I'm slowly moving away from that. Probably because when opportunities actually arise for the dating scene, I shy away. I guess I enjoy dating in the abstract but not in real life? Or maybe I just haven't been asked out by someone with whom I would 100% say yes to. Heh! I've been directly asked out by guys a total of 2 times (I don't count the time I was asked out online by 'JJ' from computer camp. I was just being nice to him and trying to help him through a rejection of a girl he liked when he asked me. Meh. I refused.
And that's another thing I dislike about dating - the refusal. I don't want to hurt people, but I think of the practicalities of dating a certian someone and I go "Naahh"
I also have a fear of being a person who accepts so as not to hurt people that I care about. I hear it's bad to do that, because it only hurts the other person even more. So I'll try not to do that.
Looks like I'll be the old maid with 10 cats at age 90!
But hey, I love cats, so it works out. =^.^=
Just so long as I have old people friend(s) who visit me every now and then. ^____^
Mmmn. Livejournal. It's one of the only places Sarah gets to be angsty in. Not too angsty, mind you!