so bummed..
i just don't get guys...
out of college, i have dated three guys.
one was 27 and off and on for a year and a half because he cheated on me and i tried to forgive him but could never truly get over it and the insecurities he brought up. i was so good to him. he realizes it now. tells me now, when he and i thought i was happy with someone new, that he "will always love me" and "i am the most generous person he knows" and that "i was so good to him and he didn't deserve it."
the next one was 22 and acted like he was my bf with his jealous and immature reactions but never made it official and never asked me to do anything or answer any of my invites to ANYTHING cuz he was "too busy" with school and work. well now he's dropped out of school. so i told this one i just wanted to be friends and after a few weeks he randomly texts me asking "why i forgot about him" and "do i miss him?" i was sayin no to that up until today. today makes me miss any past bf or fling that made me feel comforted/loved/cared for/beautiful/sexy or whatever.
and now i get into the current one. this last one is 24. he is sophisticated, intelligent, funny, sweet, liked showing affection like i do, admitted his feelings like i do without me having to ask, was open about anything, dances, plays ultimate, sings to me, asked me to be exclusive with him after three weeks of hanging out and one week after our first date, told me i was beautiful all the time...he made me feel like i try to make any guy i'm interested feel like; like the only girl in the world. that was up until this weekend. he calls me thursday afternoon and leaves me a voicemail. i call back and it goes to voicemail so i leave one. text and call later that night, and his phone continues to go straight to voicemail. then friday, i finally get a text from him sayin to call him. call him and he tells me of his grandfather having a stroke thursday night and how he still wanted to have our "date bike ride" that night but didn't know how late his mom and sister and him would be at the hospital. he told me he'd get ahold of me and let me know, but never did. i drove out towards his place and waited for 3 hours doing oddball stuff until i just decided to go downtown to celebrate my gf's bday instead. his phone still going to voicemail, i decide to drop by his house on my way home after the bars closed. his door is unlocked and i head up to his room to see if he's home. he is. watching a movie. i wasn't going to stay, but he wanted me to. i just wanted to make sure he and his grandpa were ok cuz i was beginning to worry. he said "he's not used to someone worrying about him." i ask him if he's free on sunday and he says he doesn't have any plans. he agrees to coming to pancake breakfast and my high school play. all day saturday while i was heading to and in columbus, i try to get ahold of him and his phone is still off. even facebooked and emailed. no response. leave columbus early sunday morning just in case he did get my messages and did plan on being at my house. he never showed. i didn't hear from him, so no pancake breakfast. i went to the play by myself. after the play, i texted friends from kent for his roommates number. called his roommate and a few minutes after my voicemail, he calls me back on his roommates phone. he apologizes for missing breakfast and the play and said he sent me an email. email was sent at 3 in the afternoon :( he says his phone has been dead and his sister has had his car, which has his charger in it, since friday and he can't get ahold of her but she's supposed to bring it back on sunday. he then offered to make the drive out to burton to go out to dinner and says he'll call me back on his roommates phone soon to let me know. well lo and behold, no phone call from him. no email, no facebook message, and his phone still going to voicemail. phone still goes to voicemail all day today. i email asking if we can meet up tonight to hang out. no response from anything. then around 630 tonight his phone rings?!?! couldn't believe it...but then it goes to voicemail. i leave one being so excited, yet no call back or text or email or ANYTHING from this boy. no clue what's going on and i hate that. thanks for the consideration "dream boy". i thought u were different. maybe i was wrong. maybe i'm pushing u away having so much concern for not getting to talk to or see you. i don't like not knowing what's going on. i don't like being shut out. i am to the point where it's up to you now. i want to spend time with u and talk to u, but i'm not gonna text or email or call until u do. the ball's in ur hand now...i just hope u let me in the game. didn't think u could ever get me disappointed. u proved me wrong...
out of college, i have dated three guys.
one was 27 and off and on for a year and a half because he cheated on me and i tried to forgive him but could never truly get over it and the insecurities he brought up. i was so good to him. he realizes it now. tells me now, when he and i thought i was happy with someone new, that he "will always love me" and "i am the most generous person he knows" and that "i was so good to him and he didn't deserve it."
the next one was 22 and acted like he was my bf with his jealous and immature reactions but never made it official and never asked me to do anything or answer any of my invites to ANYTHING cuz he was "too busy" with school and work. well now he's dropped out of school. so i told this one i just wanted to be friends and after a few weeks he randomly texts me asking "why i forgot about him" and "do i miss him?" i was sayin no to that up until today. today makes me miss any past bf or fling that made me feel comforted/loved/cared for/beautiful/sexy or whatever.
and now i get into the current one. this last one is 24. he is sophisticated, intelligent, funny, sweet, liked showing affection like i do, admitted his feelings like i do without me having to ask, was open about anything, dances, plays ultimate, sings to me, asked me to be exclusive with him after three weeks of hanging out and one week after our first date, told me i was beautiful all the time...he made me feel like i try to make any guy i'm interested feel like; like the only girl in the world. that was up until this weekend. he calls me thursday afternoon and leaves me a voicemail. i call back and it goes to voicemail so i leave one. text and call later that night, and his phone continues to go straight to voicemail. then friday, i finally get a text from him sayin to call him. call him and he tells me of his grandfather having a stroke thursday night and how he still wanted to have our "date bike ride" that night but didn't know how late his mom and sister and him would be at the hospital. he told me he'd get ahold of me and let me know, but never did. i drove out towards his place and waited for 3 hours doing oddball stuff until i just decided to go downtown to celebrate my gf's bday instead. his phone still going to voicemail, i decide to drop by his house on my way home after the bars closed. his door is unlocked and i head up to his room to see if he's home. he is. watching a movie. i wasn't going to stay, but he wanted me to. i just wanted to make sure he and his grandpa were ok cuz i was beginning to worry. he said "he's not used to someone worrying about him." i ask him if he's free on sunday and he says he doesn't have any plans. he agrees to coming to pancake breakfast and my high school play. all day saturday while i was heading to and in columbus, i try to get ahold of him and his phone is still off. even facebooked and emailed. no response. leave columbus early sunday morning just in case he did get my messages and did plan on being at my house. he never showed. i didn't hear from him, so no pancake breakfast. i went to the play by myself. after the play, i texted friends from kent for his roommates number. called his roommate and a few minutes after my voicemail, he calls me back on his roommates phone. he apologizes for missing breakfast and the play and said he sent me an email. email was sent at 3 in the afternoon :( he says his phone has been dead and his sister has had his car, which has his charger in it, since friday and he can't get ahold of her but she's supposed to bring it back on sunday. he then offered to make the drive out to burton to go out to dinner and says he'll call me back on his roommates phone soon to let me know. well lo and behold, no phone call from him. no email, no facebook message, and his phone still going to voicemail. phone still goes to voicemail all day today. i email asking if we can meet up tonight to hang out. no response from anything. then around 630 tonight his phone rings?!?! couldn't believe it...but then it goes to voicemail. i leave one being so excited, yet no call back or text or email or ANYTHING from this boy. no clue what's going on and i hate that. thanks for the consideration "dream boy". i thought u were different. maybe i was wrong. maybe i'm pushing u away having so much concern for not getting to talk to or see you. i don't like not knowing what's going on. i don't like being shut out. i am to the point where it's up to you now. i want to spend time with u and talk to u, but i'm not gonna text or email or call until u do. the ball's in ur hand now...i just hope u let me in the game. didn't think u could ever get me disappointed. u proved me wrong...