here i am
it's amazing how my life works.
as most of you know, its been a rough summer/fall for me. after my road trip adventure in june, things went steadily downhill.
i've given up or lost all that was importaint to me, with the exception of my family, whom to my great astonishment, has stuck by me, fuck up after fuck up.
most of my "friends" don't seem to give a rats ass, except that they'll have to find a new place to drink and smoke pot at. and i can't say i blame them. i don't know that i'd feel any differently than they do if our situations were reversed.
being poor over the past few months has given me a new perspective on things. a five dollar pack of cigarettes really is a luxury now. i am much more appreciative of the things i have, and the people i love. people have seemed to reveal their true colors to me. i feel more spiritual, and i think that i understand better now of how disposable i am to the world.
whatever. i survived. i only learn things the hard way. insert line from some posi-hardcore band here. im not giving up on anything, except maybe fake people and paying rent.
which brings me to my love life. as of a week ago, i was ready to completly give up. but i met someone amazing. completly amazing.
she makes me want to be a better person.
all of a sudden things aren't looking so bad.
as most of you know, its been a rough summer/fall for me. after my road trip adventure in june, things went steadily downhill.
i've given up or lost all that was importaint to me, with the exception of my family, whom to my great astonishment, has stuck by me, fuck up after fuck up.
most of my "friends" don't seem to give a rats ass, except that they'll have to find a new place to drink and smoke pot at. and i can't say i blame them. i don't know that i'd feel any differently than they do if our situations were reversed.
being poor over the past few months has given me a new perspective on things. a five dollar pack of cigarettes really is a luxury now. i am much more appreciative of the things i have, and the people i love. people have seemed to reveal their true colors to me. i feel more spiritual, and i think that i understand better now of how disposable i am to the world.
whatever. i survived. i only learn things the hard way. insert line from some posi-hardcore band here. im not giving up on anything, except maybe fake people and paying rent.
which brings me to my love life. as of a week ago, i was ready to completly give up. but i met someone amazing. completly amazing.
she makes me want to be a better person.
all of a sudden things aren't looking so bad.