Jan 06, 2006 00:49
Friends
family
strangers
everyone.
No matter who you are tonight this message goes to you. I can't be with everyone and explain things. I can't be everywhere to remind you of just how much I love everyone. I can't be everything but I am always me and you have that much for certain.
Tonight is about life. Life in that everything that happens happens for a reason and could not have been any other way. We may argue with it, we may hate the idea more than anything we could conceive of. The problem with these disagreements with fate is that it is. It simply is fated to be and though we cannot understand why, we must first understand that it is. The sooner we remember that no matter what happened happened for a reason the sooner we learn from it.
There has been much to think about today. From this morning's thoughts about emotional growth and spirituality, to this evenings romance and passion reborn, to tonights loss and weight on our shoulders. I find all of them in the same group. Fate, destiny, pre-determined. I am genuinely saddened by the news brought upon me tonight. But I also say in truth that we must understand that it happened for a reason, and that reason is for us to learn from this and be changed forever. I hate that another memory is gone, that no more will be made. I hate that someone else is gone. I loathe the thought of someone taking their life because it conflicts with everything I've ever believed. I hate it more than anything. Those that know me have known that I find these things attrocious and utterly disgusting to my beliefs and ideals. But let me be the first to say that I may not understand it, but I have made peace with it. I cannot change the events of tonight or any other night past. I can only make conscious decisions towards the rest of my life. Remember friends, we do not make decisions without basis or foundation. Every action/reaction we make is founded with our entire lives. 10 years, 20 years, 80 years of life have forged everything we do in our present days even choosing what to make for breakfast. Let us forge this memory into our lives and act accordingly. I love you all, goodnight.
-b.