I had really missed her
I'm watching pay it forward, classic movie. I spent the last 10 or so minutes with the dog's head on my leg as she slept. It still is comforting coming home every day to this little creature who's entire world is me. That unrequited love. I sit on the couch and she sleeps next to me, I open the door she jumps to my chest, I walk up the stairs and she's in the window. And all she asks from me is that I feed her, bathe her, and keep her warm. It's interesting to watch her.
I've got a crush. Yes I feel like a child all over again. For a while I was getting to the point where I truly felt awkward. I went to last night's show, I didn't want to, point to fact I avoided it at all costs, but I wound up going anyway. It was great. Seeing friends, old friends, and being happy just to see them. I felt different showing up in slacks, green button up, and cashmere overcoat, but hey. It's who I am. So much has changed. Josh has a wife and child due in June, Kyle is moving with his life and trying to find a career, everyone has moved. So different now. Anyway, I started this to talk about my crush but realy I want to talk about friends. I miss quite a few people, and want to see all of them. I miss the night that I ripped some 30 cds for young, we didn't talk a lot. didn't do much, but just the fact that we were together was what made it. Just being around friends is what really counts. I've been meaning to contact someone for quite some time and to no avail. He disappeared. Then I found his brother on myspace and asked for his latest cell number, got a hold of him this morning. I'm doing my best to keep bonds fresh and have no tension. but, thats what I'm always doing right?
I miss you all, come by sometime. I'll light a candle for you.
-b
I've got a crush. Yes I feel like a child all over again. For a while I was getting to the point where I truly felt awkward. I went to last night's show, I didn't want to, point to fact I avoided it at all costs, but I wound up going anyway. It was great. Seeing friends, old friends, and being happy just to see them. I felt different showing up in slacks, green button up, and cashmere overcoat, but hey. It's who I am. So much has changed. Josh has a wife and child due in June, Kyle is moving with his life and trying to find a career, everyone has moved. So different now. Anyway, I started this to talk about my crush but realy I want to talk about friends. I miss quite a few people, and want to see all of them. I miss the night that I ripped some 30 cds for young, we didn't talk a lot. didn't do much, but just the fact that we were together was what made it. Just being around friends is what really counts. I've been meaning to contact someone for quite some time and to no avail. He disappeared. Then I found his brother on myspace and asked for his latest cell number, got a hold of him this morning. I'm doing my best to keep bonds fresh and have no tension. but, thats what I'm always doing right?
I miss you all, come by sometime. I'll light a candle for you.
-b