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[brianjefferson]

on the earth
passed the cumulus clouds
in the western hemisphere
on the north american continent
eastern seaboard
the state of Virginia
the city of norfolk

i sat on a bench on the mall of odu
it's march 20th something i think
irrelevant in this case

i came to startling realization

i'm numb...

i've never felt like this before
is it the transition into adult hood?
which i think is never ending or
have i always been this way

i still feel the wind
heat
my heartbeat
cold
rain

i threw my cigarette on the ground
where winter and spring collide

i'm no longer compassionate
empathetic
sympathetic

is this a means for catharsis
i think not
i realized
for the first time in my life
i don't know
completely clueless
but what would life be if we weren't at times
it would be too paltry
trivial
not worth the effort of getting up everyday
not worth the effort of living