it's just one of those days :-D
i had the best nap of my life today! it was aaaamazing. changed my attitude towards the whole day! it was great! 2 and a half hours of pure bliss. yahoo for quality naps!
i am sitting here avoiding homework...tehehehe. but i did figure out my econ's algebra all by myself! it took fooorever to remember my 8th grade math, but i did it!
so i had meetings etc. to go to and i was in a good mood and saw kirk (ex) online. and i was like mmmm, i'll be nice cause he did im me once, so i'll just be nice.
and then you realize...SHIT i have nothing in common with him anymore. except the past. i have to work sooo hard to make convo with him. and we talk about classes and then the past. and that's about all there is. it's just weird to think about. someone who knew me inside and out for a lot of high school, i can't even keep up a normal conversation with on instant messenger. what would happen if i saw him in person? that's pure craziness.
i guess that shows me again how MUCH i've changed since that time in my life. or even high school. it's amazing.
how many other awesome, different, extrordinary people i've let touch my life. instead of sitting in my kirk bubble. granted for awhile it was a nice bubble, but the outside right now is FABALOS!so glad that it opened up and found the support that i did..some of the coolest people i know i found that way!and those kids defintely got me ready for what i would find at college. and to not settle with my friends. but to give everyone a chance, and not count anyone out. i think my busy schedule makes me happier and puts me in a good mood and be excited about what i do have. mmm yay!
but it also feels like when i'm happy...others aren't as much. my sister and bf broke up, my roomie is incredibly stressed...my dear jen ben searching for people worthy of her time.
and it's like you wish there were tons of happy people all around you...but that's not always the case. but maybe that's why i've been given the good mood. so i can help those around me who are working through the hard stuff. and i think the good mood is also here so i can go out and get started on things that will keep the happiness.
and i've come to peace with boys. they're fuckers right now and they can't exactly help it. and who the hell wants to deal with a fucker beyond friendship? count me out. i'll let those nerds grow up before i let them into my life :P
yeah...i'm happy with that reasoning :) yay for happiness. i hope that happiness finds you too.. :-D cause i KNOW you deserve it!!
and tomorrow is friday...GAME ON!!! hell yeah!!!
i am sitting here avoiding homework...tehehehe. but i did figure out my econ's algebra all by myself! it took fooorever to remember my 8th grade math, but i did it!
so i had meetings etc. to go to and i was in a good mood and saw kirk (ex) online. and i was like mmmm, i'll be nice cause he did im me once, so i'll just be nice.
and then you realize...SHIT i have nothing in common with him anymore. except the past. i have to work sooo hard to make convo with him. and we talk about classes and then the past. and that's about all there is. it's just weird to think about. someone who knew me inside and out for a lot of high school, i can't even keep up a normal conversation with on instant messenger. what would happen if i saw him in person? that's pure craziness.
i guess that shows me again how MUCH i've changed since that time in my life. or even high school. it's amazing.
how many other awesome, different, extrordinary people i've let touch my life. instead of sitting in my kirk bubble. granted for awhile it was a nice bubble, but the outside right now is FABALOS!so glad that it opened up and found the support that i did..some of the coolest people i know i found that way!and those kids defintely got me ready for what i would find at college. and to not settle with my friends. but to give everyone a chance, and not count anyone out. i think my busy schedule makes me happier and puts me in a good mood and be excited about what i do have. mmm yay!
but it also feels like when i'm happy...others aren't as much. my sister and bf broke up, my roomie is incredibly stressed...my dear jen ben searching for people worthy of her time.
and it's like you wish there were tons of happy people all around you...but that's not always the case. but maybe that's why i've been given the good mood. so i can help those around me who are working through the hard stuff. and i think the good mood is also here so i can go out and get started on things that will keep the happiness.
and i've come to peace with boys. they're fuckers right now and they can't exactly help it. and who the hell wants to deal with a fucker beyond friendship? count me out. i'll let those nerds grow up before i let them into my life :P
yeah...i'm happy with that reasoning :) yay for happiness. i hope that happiness finds you too.. :-D cause i KNOW you deserve it!!
and tomorrow is friday...GAME ON!!! hell yeah!!!