so close...but feels so far!
camp thursday! one more day to get my shit together. that's intense. but it's like the same feeling i had before i left for college. i just wanted to do it and get it over with. find out what it's REALLY like. who i will be living with, what i really will be doing, what girls i really will be in charge of. me? in charge? wow. there has been A LOT of faith put in me. that should be enough emotion there. wow i hope so.
i was right about being okay with doing summer camp this summer. social wise. i've seen many of the people i wanted to see and check in with. and now i'm okay with going off and being some what cut off from others. honestly the biggest thing i will be missing is keeping in contact with school people. but reunion in august will be that much better! weeee
i'm dissapointed that i didn't get in any soccer. things didn't play out as i had hoped with the team, but not much i can do now. i'll bring a ball to camp so hopefully i'll do that enough.
i'm excited and nervous for preseason. i've done it before, but this year we'll have almost a full week of just practce with the team before we even lose the freshman. i'm so afraid that i will once again simply sit on the bench. i'm sure there's a great class of freshmen coming in that carter could already have things for and i'll be stuck. i mean, i can say, i'll control what i can and i'll work my ass off. but is that something i have the motivation and drive to do? am i ready for another season of practices? of bus rides? man. sigh. we'll see. i've signed myself up for it. time to get through it. i guess i can't imagine going to school not playing soccer. i mean if i don't play this season it's not worth playing. but it's such an adjustment not to have soccer in my life. something that was so huge and such a passion and it would suddenly become SO much less. sigh. but i'm ahead of myself. this fall comes first.
ewww...my mumsy made me chocolate chip cooies today. she owed me a batch. soooo good...defintley ate too many......sleeeeeeep
i was right about being okay with doing summer camp this summer. social wise. i've seen many of the people i wanted to see and check in with. and now i'm okay with going off and being some what cut off from others. honestly the biggest thing i will be missing is keeping in contact with school people. but reunion in august will be that much better! weeee
i'm dissapointed that i didn't get in any soccer. things didn't play out as i had hoped with the team, but not much i can do now. i'll bring a ball to camp so hopefully i'll do that enough.
i'm excited and nervous for preseason. i've done it before, but this year we'll have almost a full week of just practce with the team before we even lose the freshman. i'm so afraid that i will once again simply sit on the bench. i'm sure there's a great class of freshmen coming in that carter could already have things for and i'll be stuck. i mean, i can say, i'll control what i can and i'll work my ass off. but is that something i have the motivation and drive to do? am i ready for another season of practices? of bus rides? man. sigh. we'll see. i've signed myself up for it. time to get through it. i guess i can't imagine going to school not playing soccer. i mean if i don't play this season it's not worth playing. but it's such an adjustment not to have soccer in my life. something that was so huge and such a passion and it would suddenly become SO much less. sigh. but i'm ahead of myself. this fall comes first.
ewww...my mumsy made me chocolate chip cooies today. she owed me a batch. soooo good...defintley ate too many......sleeeeeeep