Its been a while
I needed someplace to write down my thoughts. I figured this would be an okay place to do it. Its a pretty safe bet nobody will read this. There is of course, always the option of just making it private and to myself, but whatever.
Its been over a year now, and for some reason, despite my greatest efforts, I can't forget you. You're like a little nagging gnat that keeps flying in my eye and I have to rub you out again. I told you the things I wanted, that I will always care about you, and just to have you in my life would have been enough, even if I only heard from you once a month. And yet here I am, still wondering what happened. Still wondering why I'm stuck on this emotional plane of disinterest and indifference. Why did you have such a profound effect on me? Why, when its a year later, do you still cross my mind? Why?
I went so far today as to Google "self-induced retrograde amnesia" to see if I could forget you. I found out there is a way, but it requires a mental capacity that I just don't have. I guess I'm stuck with the memory of you.
Staind - Outside
And you.....Could bring me to my knees...Again.
All the times.....When I could beg you please...In vein.
All the times.....When I felt insecure...For you
And I leave.....My burdens at the door...
But I'm on the outside, I'm lookin in.
I can see through you, see your true colors.
Cause inside you're ugly, you're ugly like me.
I can see through you, see to the real you.
All the times.....That I felt like this won't end...It's for you.
And I taste.....What I could never have...It was from you.
All the times...That I've cried...My intentions...Were full of pride.
But I watse.....More time than anyone...
But I'm on the outside, I'm lookin in.
I can see through you, see your true colors.
Cause inside you're ugly, you're ugly like me.
I can see through you, see to the real you.
All the times.....That I've cried...
All this wasted....It's all inside...
And I feel.....All this pain...
Stuffed it down.....It's back again...
And I lie....Here in bed....
All alone....I can't mend....
But I feel....Tomorrow will be okay...
I'm on the outside....And I'm looking in....
I can see through you....see your true colors....
Cause inside you're ugly....you're ugly like me....
I can see through you....see to the real you.
Its been over a year now, and for some reason, despite my greatest efforts, I can't forget you. You're like a little nagging gnat that keeps flying in my eye and I have to rub you out again. I told you the things I wanted, that I will always care about you, and just to have you in my life would have been enough, even if I only heard from you once a month. And yet here I am, still wondering what happened. Still wondering why I'm stuck on this emotional plane of disinterest and indifference. Why did you have such a profound effect on me? Why, when its a year later, do you still cross my mind? Why?
I went so far today as to Google "self-induced retrograde amnesia" to see if I could forget you. I found out there is a way, but it requires a mental capacity that I just don't have. I guess I'm stuck with the memory of you.
Staind - Outside
And you.....Could bring me to my knees...Again.
All the times.....When I could beg you please...In vein.
All the times.....When I felt insecure...For you
And I leave.....My burdens at the door...
But I'm on the outside, I'm lookin in.
I can see through you, see your true colors.
Cause inside you're ugly, you're ugly like me.
I can see through you, see to the real you.
All the times.....That I felt like this won't end...It's for you.
And I taste.....What I could never have...It was from you.
All the times...That I've cried...My intentions...Were full of pride.
But I watse.....More time than anyone...
But I'm on the outside, I'm lookin in.
I can see through you, see your true colors.
Cause inside you're ugly, you're ugly like me.
I can see through you, see to the real you.
All the times.....That I've cried...
All this wasted....It's all inside...
And I feel.....All this pain...
Stuffed it down.....It's back again...
And I lie....Here in bed....
All alone....I can't mend....
But I feel....Tomorrow will be okay...
I'm on the outside....And I'm looking in....
I can see through you....see your true colors....
Cause inside you're ugly....you're ugly like me....
I can see through you....see to the real you.