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Wintertime approaches and the chill in the air is accompanied by my seasonal blahs. I've already started to see all of the signs. I'm being really hard on myself, I feel my self image faltering daily, and my cruel side is showing its face once again. A lot of my excessive introspection and worry about the way others view me has returned too.
It worries me because I don't like to be crazy. I don't like the things I say, nor the thoughts I think when I feel this way, either.
That said, I really can't wait to be in Toronto for American Thanksgiving. I am really looking forward to spending some time with friends and family. I know they will recharge my self-esteem and positivity. There's nothing like the people who know you the best to remind you of who you really are. I plan on indulging in all of my favourite things while home. I will eat, dance, drink, socialize, and probably spend too much money. I say "fuck it" because the time I have at home is so limited these days. I deserve to enjoy every second of it.
Things to look forward to: A haircut
Free dinner
Cuddling
It worries me because I don't like to be crazy. I don't like the things I say, nor the thoughts I think when I feel this way, either.
That said, I really can't wait to be in Toronto for American Thanksgiving. I am really looking forward to spending some time with friends and family. I know they will recharge my self-esteem and positivity. There's nothing like the people who know you the best to remind you of who you really are. I plan on indulging in all of my favourite things while home. I will eat, dance, drink, socialize, and probably spend too much money. I say "fuck it" because the time I have at home is so limited these days. I deserve to enjoy every second of it.
Things to look forward to: A haircut
Free dinner
Cuddling