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[brezzygirl]

omg today was such a horrible day. i had to present in american lit today and it couldn't have gone worse. i had it memorized so well but i got up there and i literally froze and couldn't remember a thing. i was holding on so hard to the podeum thing that i was moving it. then when i couldn't remember what to say my teacher would tell me and i would look around and see everyone staring and me and i couldn't hear him and i looked like a complete idiot ahh i cant believe i was so horrible. i cant stand speaking in front of the class. i feel like everyone is judging me which they probably are. i hated doing it so much. after that class i just cried because i was so humilated and then i had almosted composed myself when this girl from my american lit class told me how bad i was. why are people mean? i dont get it. it just made me feel horrible.

does not doing well in school and not liking school make me such a bad person? because it makes me feel that way.

sorry for such a whiney entry but it really upset me. on the way home from school i just kept thinking about it on the bus and the longer i sat and thought about it the more upset i got.