200 cigarettes -1
last night i went out with lindsey, jenny grant, marisa, dane, and a few of danes friends. dane has some pretty cute friends. mainly his friend jeff who was feeling me all night.
it's funny because i had a whole story planned out for lindsey when icalled her after work. and she knows me so well, she was like we're leaving now. don't tell me you'll meet me later because you won't. change your clothes and meet us at the train. and i did. it was really nice to just do it instead of spending 20 minutes debating it.
and i ended up having a good time, for the most part at least. i stayed til 2:30, which wasn't bad seeing as how i didn't want to go in the first place.
i got to see a bunch of my friends that i never see, and it was really good. i want to keep in touch better now that i have a lot more time for myself. not that i didn't have time for myself when i was with charlie, but i always put him and our relationship first. which was important to me. but now i put myself first, and it's really nice.
so helen was there, and we talked for a long time about sheffield, it was good. and i met her friend Jen who told me to come work with her at Benaton, the united colors of, and i am seriously considering it. except i can barely deal with the marshall fields bitches, i don't know how it will go with the united colors of benaton bitches.
and liz and lauren were there, along with katie. it was her welcome home party after all. all of them were so sweet to me and said they were sorry to hear about the charlie break up, and they told me how good i looked. i got so many compliments. it was really refreshing to be told how good i looked. i haven't felt that in a long time.
and everything was going well. i talked to lindsey about how much i miss her and how i don't care if she's just hanging out watching tv, it would still be nice to see her more than every couple weeks.
and that is when i made the fatal error of asking for a cigarette.
i smoked it, and i thought i was high. it was the strangest feeling because i was drunk, but this was a different high than pot, it was like my entire body was excited. when i'm high normally i chill out, but this cigarette made me feel everything and it was great! and it lasted for about....6 minutes, and then i got sick. maybe that's because i'm fucking allergic to cigarettes. i'm such a moron. so i had to leave right away because i was so embarassed. i didn't even get that Jeff guys number. but i'm going to call lindsey and see if he said anything about me. he works across the street from water tower, so maybe we can grab lunch or something.
man, a stupid cigarette. what was i thinking???
it's funny because i had a whole story planned out for lindsey when icalled her after work. and she knows me so well, she was like we're leaving now. don't tell me you'll meet me later because you won't. change your clothes and meet us at the train. and i did. it was really nice to just do it instead of spending 20 minutes debating it.
and i ended up having a good time, for the most part at least. i stayed til 2:30, which wasn't bad seeing as how i didn't want to go in the first place.
i got to see a bunch of my friends that i never see, and it was really good. i want to keep in touch better now that i have a lot more time for myself. not that i didn't have time for myself when i was with charlie, but i always put him and our relationship first. which was important to me. but now i put myself first, and it's really nice.
so helen was there, and we talked for a long time about sheffield, it was good. and i met her friend Jen who told me to come work with her at Benaton, the united colors of, and i am seriously considering it. except i can barely deal with the marshall fields bitches, i don't know how it will go with the united colors of benaton bitches.
and liz and lauren were there, along with katie. it was her welcome home party after all. all of them were so sweet to me and said they were sorry to hear about the charlie break up, and they told me how good i looked. i got so many compliments. it was really refreshing to be told how good i looked. i haven't felt that in a long time.
and everything was going well. i talked to lindsey about how much i miss her and how i don't care if she's just hanging out watching tv, it would still be nice to see her more than every couple weeks.
and that is when i made the fatal error of asking for a cigarette.
i smoked it, and i thought i was high. it was the strangest feeling because i was drunk, but this was a different high than pot, it was like my entire body was excited. when i'm high normally i chill out, but this cigarette made me feel everything and it was great! and it lasted for about....6 minutes, and then i got sick. maybe that's because i'm fucking allergic to cigarettes. i'm such a moron. so i had to leave right away because i was so embarassed. i didn't even get that Jeff guys number. but i'm going to call lindsey and see if he said anything about me. he works across the street from water tower, so maybe we can grab lunch or something.
man, a stupid cigarette. what was i thinking???