Help!
OK.....pick one...casue I cant...
I really like jeremy but i feel like I constantly have to change myself to keep him happy, but at the same time being with him is the best, people say all i am to him Is a bootycall but I dont wanna belive that...Im so confused
Ive been told to go out with josh casue he really cares bout me, but when would I see him and right now i just dont know what I want. He is so sweet and he likes me for me and does not try to change me.
There is something about jeremy that is keeping me from dating other people....4 people have asked me out this week and one told me he likes me and I turned them all down for something im not even sure is there....what is wrong with me I cant see what right infront of my fuckin face.....
Another thing I feel like i dont wanna make an effort to anyone since andrey, He broke my heart and Im still coping with that. He has found a new chick already that he apparently "loves" his throws that word around like crazy. Why do i peoidically think about him, sometimes I have to open that box and cry, I know im sad and pathetic Im so confused and lost.
And when i try to talk to anyone of yall about this you tune me out dont listen....Im so lost.
Now all that i thought i had in west palm is gone....I thought i had true friends but I dont they balied on me the minute I needed them, of course everything good in this world for me goes away.
Someone plz explain why things suck this much, I wanna leave here, I dont know where.......Not west palm there is nothing there for me, maybe ill move somewhere I know no one just for the sake of starting a new life.
I had the dream again I havent had it in 2months....my mom showed up at my 16th birthday after i blew out my candles....but the sad thing is i know that when the candles are out and all is silent In my mind the door bell wont ring she wont be there with the 16th candle.
I hate this.......I wrote all the this here cause no one really does lj anymore....so Im wrtting to a silent audiece...but it makes me feel so mcuh better.
I really like jeremy but i feel like I constantly have to change myself to keep him happy, but at the same time being with him is the best, people say all i am to him Is a bootycall but I dont wanna belive that...Im so confused
Ive been told to go out with josh casue he really cares bout me, but when would I see him and right now i just dont know what I want. He is so sweet and he likes me for me and does not try to change me.
There is something about jeremy that is keeping me from dating other people....4 people have asked me out this week and one told me he likes me and I turned them all down for something im not even sure is there....what is wrong with me I cant see what right infront of my fuckin face.....
Another thing I feel like i dont wanna make an effort to anyone since andrey, He broke my heart and Im still coping with that. He has found a new chick already that he apparently "loves" his throws that word around like crazy. Why do i peoidically think about him, sometimes I have to open that box and cry, I know im sad and pathetic Im so confused and lost.
And when i try to talk to anyone of yall about this you tune me out dont listen....Im so lost.
Now all that i thought i had in west palm is gone....I thought i had true friends but I dont they balied on me the minute I needed them, of course everything good in this world for me goes away.
Someone plz explain why things suck this much, I wanna leave here, I dont know where.......Not west palm there is nothing there for me, maybe ill move somewhere I know no one just for the sake of starting a new life.
I had the dream again I havent had it in 2months....my mom showed up at my 16th birthday after i blew out my candles....but the sad thing is i know that when the candles are out and all is silent In my mind the door bell wont ring she wont be there with the 16th candle.
I hate this.......I wrote all the this here cause no one really does lj anymore....so Im wrtting to a silent audiece...but it makes me feel so mcuh better.