Lovely
Apparently I am the most gullable person in the world.
A friend, who i had feelings for, and said she had feelins for me, 'dumped me' because she said it would be to hard to say goodbye to me at the end of the summer.
Now she won't call, im, or even e-mail me back, and according to facebook is in a relationship with someone.
I feel so fucking stupid. SSSOOOO Stupid!
Everytime I find someone who genuinely makes me smile, someone else fucks it up, or I fuck it up.
Vanessa made me smile, we talked forever, then finally spent some time together... We both seemed happy. Then POOF no more friendship or Vanessa.
Amanda P made me smile, thought we were friends, now apparently I'm a 'creep' cuz I talked to Danielle?!?
Danielle made me smile too. She's a genuinely good person. I really enjoyed talking to her and was so excited to meet up with her in Boca so I could meet someone who seems to be like me at FGCU. Then Amanda P met her, and now Danielle is different :-/
Someone told me I was a 'player' this past weekend. That I was playing a 'game.'
Anyone that truely knows me knows I'm not capable of playing 'the game.' Don't think I wouldn't love to, every other guy I know does in some way or another. I talk about 'the game', I just can't hurt people, not intentionally anyway. I can't play the game even if I wanted to. I know what it feels like to be 'played' or 'used'.
Its been a long time since I've really said what I think in here, what I feel. If your going to comment, please don't be an asshole. I really cant handle it right now.
What if there was no light?
Nothing wrong, nothing right.
What if there was no time?
And no reason or rhyme.
What if you should decide, that you don't want me there by your side.
That you don't want me there in your life.
What if I got it wrong, and no poem or song
Could put right what I got wrong
Or make you feel I belong
What if you should decide that you don't want me there by your side
That you don't want me there in your life.
Oooh, that's right
Let's take a breath jump over the side
Oooh, that's right
How can you know it if you don't even try
Oooh, that's right
Every step that you take could be your biggest mistake
It could bend or it could break
But that's the risk that you take
What if you should decide
That you don't want me there in your life
That you don't want me there by your side.
Oooh, that's right
Let's take a breath jump over the side
Oooh, that's right
How can you know it when you don't even try
Oooh, that's right
Ohhhhh
Oooh, that's right
Let's take a breath jump over the side
Oooh, that's right
You know that darkness always turns into light
Oooh, that's right
A friend, who i had feelings for, and said she had feelins for me, 'dumped me' because she said it would be to hard to say goodbye to me at the end of the summer.
Now she won't call, im, or even e-mail me back, and according to facebook is in a relationship with someone.
I feel so fucking stupid. SSSOOOO Stupid!
Everytime I find someone who genuinely makes me smile, someone else fucks it up, or I fuck it up.
Vanessa made me smile, we talked forever, then finally spent some time together... We both seemed happy. Then POOF no more friendship or Vanessa.
Amanda P made me smile, thought we were friends, now apparently I'm a 'creep' cuz I talked to Danielle?!?
Danielle made me smile too. She's a genuinely good person. I really enjoyed talking to her and was so excited to meet up with her in Boca so I could meet someone who seems to be like me at FGCU. Then Amanda P met her, and now Danielle is different :-/
Someone told me I was a 'player' this past weekend. That I was playing a 'game.'
Anyone that truely knows me knows I'm not capable of playing 'the game.' Don't think I wouldn't love to, every other guy I know does in some way or another. I talk about 'the game', I just can't hurt people, not intentionally anyway. I can't play the game even if I wanted to. I know what it feels like to be 'played' or 'used'.
Its been a long time since I've really said what I think in here, what I feel. If your going to comment, please don't be an asshole. I really cant handle it right now.
What if there was no light?
Nothing wrong, nothing right.
What if there was no time?
And no reason or rhyme.
What if you should decide, that you don't want me there by your side.
That you don't want me there in your life.
What if I got it wrong, and no poem or song
Could put right what I got wrong
Or make you feel I belong
What if you should decide that you don't want me there by your side
That you don't want me there in your life.
Oooh, that's right
Let's take a breath jump over the side
Oooh, that's right
How can you know it if you don't even try
Oooh, that's right
Every step that you take could be your biggest mistake
It could bend or it could break
But that's the risk that you take
What if you should decide
That you don't want me there in your life
That you don't want me there by your side.
Oooh, that's right
Let's take a breath jump over the side
Oooh, that's right
How can you know it when you don't even try
Oooh, that's right
Ohhhhh
Oooh, that's right
Let's take a breath jump over the side
Oooh, that's right
You know that darkness always turns into light
Oooh, that's right