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I have way too many Hanson songs. I think I'm too excited to see them. I'm gonna fucking cry. How come they never got into drugs or had children out of wedlock? I really miss listening to them as silly and immature as that sounds but I've followed them for ten years. I rode way too many roller coasters today. I'm trying hard to not get too jaded before I go back to school. I feel like what I want is so far from my reach. I feel like fucking random hot people and doing lots of drugs because I feel like there isn't enough love in the entire world to satisfy me. I wanna melt into someone. School starts soon. I'm not sure how excited I am about it because I'm not sure how I'm gonna feel to see a certain person I used to be so fucking close to pass me by like I don't exist. It's gonna be hard. So fucking hard. My cousin Rachel and I are getting fucking wasted the day I move in so I'm looking forward to that. She's a freshman. I hope she doesn't fail out because she likes to party just as much as me. I'm gonna miss my club kids when I leave. I don't know how I'm gonna function without Corey and Samantha. I'm gonna miss going to the north side with Joshwa and getting blunts and beer and not getting IDed because we're "good people". I'm gonna miss my Red Light crew and playing kings at Nikki and Melinda's appartment. I'm gonna miss dancing with Corey so fucking much as well as living at his house. I met so many awesome people this summer. The rave this Saturday will probably be the last night I go out with them. We're all rolling and I'm so excited.