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its always there. everyday and night, its there, those thoughts. thoughts of her. they dont quit, even when i try they dont. they keep going endlessly. of good and bad times. of confusing times. they keep going. at times i dont wish they would stop. at times it just feels like a poison but i dont want to cure it. what the hell is wrong with me?! its like i dont realize tha things wont be the same. as if i still have a chance....when all odds are against me....and i cant compete.....but the thought of hope keeps coming back......