when do i ever have a subject?

Feb 20, 2006 22:04

sooo i told you i would update, and i am. as i told you in my previous entry ive been really sick the past week. i had a really bad cough, sore throat, headache that wouldnt go away and i was all stuffed up. i still am kind of sick, i think my moms going to take me back to the doctor sometime this week because i am still coughing alot.

being home was alright, the medicine the doctor gave me made me really sleepy. so i spent most of my week on my couch sleeping and watching tv. i was also home with my mom the whole week since she was sick also. that kind of bugged me that i wasnt home alone at all this week but she did alot for me this week, she was kind of like...a slave?

the weekend was pretty bad. friday i stayed home during the day, then worked 5-9. around 9:30 liz, colleen and alex popped up at my house and i hung out with them for a little. saturday did nothing once again then worked again from 5-9. came home and it was too cold out to make plans so i stayed home and watched headbangers ball and TNA impact wrestling along with some season one of lost. sunday did nothing until about 3 when i showered then called AK up to see what he was doing. he told me to go to wills, so i did. then greg popped up. we then decided we were hungry so mrs hubbard took us to white castle. we split a crave case i ended up eating 8 burgers. we laster ventured back to gregs house to watch a movie or something but i ended up playing with my sidekick and ipod all night. today i stayed home and cleaned my room and did stuff around the house. and thats why this weekend sucked.

life hasnt been so grand either. i love my friends but dont get me wrong or anything but they just get really boring at times. we always do the same thing and its loosing its touch.i need to make some new friends soon, sort of like i did last year by becoming friends with rachel, jane and all of them southsiders. maybe its just the winter and it being cold and not having many options of places to go and such. i really hope thats what it is.

another thing, its that time in my life where i really just want somebody again. just to know that somebody out there cares for me would be absolutly great. i think its that feeling i really want the most. like some of my friends have girlfriends or whatever and they are just soooo happy. for example, billy...ever since he started going out with cassy hes been such a happy guy. its great, i just wish that i could feel the same basically. dont get me wrong ive been pretty happy lately but it just feels that my life is really missing something. and it is...a significant other. or even just somebody whos always there to hang out and stuff and thats a girl. i mean theres a few girls id do anything for if they gave me just one chance. alright maybe not a few maybe...just one. yep that one girl who whenever i see,i smile. that one girl who whenever i hang out with i always have fun even if we just sit around all day. i really just wish she could see past the im her "best guy friend" bullshit and give me one chance. i understand shes probably afraid to risk our friendship but thats such a risk i would take i dont think you understand. im sure its pretty obvious who this girl is. just dont bother me about it, thanks.

im pretty sure that conclueds everything. that felt so good to get out, maybe ill start writing in here a little more often. who knows?
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