My Crush Continues
Last night I had dinner with the guy I have a crush on at his apartment. I brought some fantastic brisket and he cooked the most amazingly good side dishes to go with it. He is so thoughtful. Everything he made was safe for me to eat since I am still on the South Beach diet. He has done this since I started the diet. I asked him if he cooks like this for himself and he said "Are you kidding." It continues to confuse me how thoughtful he is toward me.
He bought a new blue-ray DVD player the night before and wanted me to come over to watch a movie on it. I have to say, it was a really great viewing experience. We watched "300". Kind of gruesome, but a good story.
After the movie, we sat outside his front door and talked about life before we each got sober. It was kind of romantic, except he kept watching this really hot straight guy who walked by a few times. lol.
OK. Just got off the phone with my crush. He called to tell me some good news about his business. It is very clear to me how important I have become to him. Sometimes I tell myself it is better to be friends, since my record with boyfriends has not been good and if we are friends, he will be in my life longer. This gives me little solace, since my longing to hold him against me becomes painful with it's denial to me. I almost ended the relationship due to the pain it sometimes can cause me. For now, I accept what I have, but work to keep my head out of the clouds of confusion my emotions can create in me.
He bought a new blue-ray DVD player the night before and wanted me to come over to watch a movie on it. I have to say, it was a really great viewing experience. We watched "300". Kind of gruesome, but a good story.
After the movie, we sat outside his front door and talked about life before we each got sober. It was kind of romantic, except he kept watching this really hot straight guy who walked by a few times. lol.
OK. Just got off the phone with my crush. He called to tell me some good news about his business. It is very clear to me how important I have become to him. Sometimes I tell myself it is better to be friends, since my record with boyfriends has not been good and if we are friends, he will be in my life longer. This gives me little solace, since my longing to hold him against me becomes painful with it's denial to me. I almost ended the relationship due to the pain it sometimes can cause me. For now, I accept what I have, but work to keep my head out of the clouds of confusion my emotions can create in me.