Hrmm.
It's been one of those months, you know?
Been struggling lately doing my school work, and now with this exam that I need to finish and submit. Just seems that I've been lacking attention-span, and attention to detail as of late. There's a lot of things going through my mind right now, and I don't usually share them publicly. Just a mix of emotions about a few things/people lately who have been there for me and those who have given me guidance.
I've seen what animals some people become outside of their comfort zone, and to be honest it was quite "eye-opening."
I feel guilty.
I feel guilty about a few things.
Hope. I always want to give people hope, even if they're aware of the inevitable... I told her she had nothing to worry about, that her 1 year was up and she would be hired on. Monday will be her last day, and she doesn't know it yet. :-(
Pressure. The pressure to be a good engineer, make smart decisions, and get projects done is incredibly stressful.
I'm being bombarded with projects, deadlines, and international communication with engineers from Poland who keep changing they're expectations.
Language barrier... not helping.
All in all, I can't complain... this is what I signed on for. This is what I need to be happy and to feel my purpose is being met.
I'm lonely right now it feels, but that isn't a bad thing. :-)
Been struggling lately doing my school work, and now with this exam that I need to finish and submit. Just seems that I've been lacking attention-span, and attention to detail as of late. There's a lot of things going through my mind right now, and I don't usually share them publicly. Just a mix of emotions about a few things/people lately who have been there for me and those who have given me guidance.
I've seen what animals some people become outside of their comfort zone, and to be honest it was quite "eye-opening."
I feel guilty.
I feel guilty about a few things.
Hope. I always want to give people hope, even if they're aware of the inevitable... I told her she had nothing to worry about, that her 1 year was up and she would be hired on. Monday will be her last day, and she doesn't know it yet. :-(
Pressure. The pressure to be a good engineer, make smart decisions, and get projects done is incredibly stressful.
I'm being bombarded with projects, deadlines, and international communication with engineers from Poland who keep changing they're expectations.
Language barrier... not helping.
All in all, I can't complain... this is what I signed on for. This is what I need to be happy and to feel my purpose is being met.
I'm lonely right now it feels, but that isn't a bad thing. :-)