Oddly enough I felt the exact same way 2-1/2 years ago. Get up go to work come home sit around go to sleep, repeat. Over and over and over again. While sitting at home all you can think about is how you are going to do the same thing tomorrow and the next day untill you quit your job or you die. And for what so you can pay some stupid bills. It all was so completly pointless and depressing. No point to any of it and such a let down.
Then I found out I was going to have a son. and my outlook on everything changed. There was a reason to get up and go to work. There was a point to the every day stupidity we are all forced to live through. Each day I am rewarded with a smiling face that looks to me and his mother for everything. I go to work now so I can get my son cool stuff and provide him with food and a roof over his head and anything else that will enable him to enjoy life better.
Anyways I am not suggesting you go out and have a kid. But I think the key is to find your nich in life. What that is or how you find it or how you even start looking I couldn't tell you. I accidently fell into mine. But I think it is important to find that passion of something that makes worthwhile to do everything you do. What in the world makes going to kinkos and putting up with all the bullshit worth it.That is what you have to find. Maybe what I am saying makes absolutly no sense or just seems like a bunch of bullshit but all I know is I felt like I was reading my exact thoughts from two years ago while reading your post and I don't feel that way anymore.
Plus topping that summer following Adamantium on tour and all the shit we did in highschool is pretty much impossible. I still consider those days the best days of my life.
Anyways that is the best advice I can give to an old friend, it may not be much but it is all I can give. Just know you aren't the only one who has these thoughts and that it is possible to get beyond them.
Then I found out I was going to have a son. and my outlook on everything changed. There was a reason to get up and go to work. There was a point to the every day stupidity we are all forced to live through. Each day I am rewarded with a smiling face that looks to me and his mother for everything. I go to work now so I can get my son cool stuff and provide him with food and a roof over his head and anything else that will enable him to enjoy life better.
Anyways I am not suggesting you go out and have a kid. But I think the key is to find your nich in life. What that is or how you find it or how you even start looking I couldn't tell you. I accidently fell into mine. But I think it is important to find that passion of something that makes worthwhile to do everything you do. What in the world makes going to kinkos and putting up with all the bullshit worth it.That is what you have to find. Maybe what I am saying makes absolutly no sense or just seems like a bunch of bullshit but all I know is I felt like I was reading my exact thoughts from two years ago while reading your post and I don't feel that way anymore.
Plus topping that summer following Adamantium on tour and all the shit we did in highschool is pretty much impossible. I still consider those days the best days of my life.
Anyways that is the best advice I can give to an old friend, it may not be much but it is all I can give. Just know you aren't the only one who has these thoughts and that it is possible to get beyond them.
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