Seniors are gone, weekend sucked, relationship sucks, alot of stuff sucks
Seniors leaving makes those other two things suck...may-jor-lee. Theres alot of them who are now leaving, even know their all leaving, but many that I never really talked to but who stuck out. I wish I would've put more effort into talking to them, and getting to know them, but I guess im too shy....or else I use class as an excuse...it still sucks thought all together. I was thinking about sending the ones letters wishing them good luck with their future decisions and such...I dont know what kind of response I'd get, or if they'd even think of it as useful information and think of it as some stupid shit because I dont even know what they think of me....good or bad? I try to not dwell on it, but to have the opportunity swell to create different relationships just dissapear right under your nose virtually....sucks ass, hopefully I'll make up for it this summer who knows..anyways
Havent updated this thing in a while, figured I'd just quit but I decided I needed to brush up on my typing skills.
Last night was alright, chilled with tjon and brown. skipped school and went to work, should be getting that $ soon. after work just chilled with tj and brown, various people came thoughout the night. natalie was buzy on her "senior canoe trip" friday and sat.night so basically I dont get to see her till sunday...whatever though. i dono what terms we're really on because of some of the things goin on between us, but I just dont feel the same vibe that I did from her that I did, like its just gone, I dono know when it happend, why, or waht....maybe she cheated on me, maybe she thinks "we're" getting old, or wants to be single cuz she just graduated and needs a fresh start...any of those would suck to end that sentace factually, so hopefully there all wrong, what sucks though is that if she read this while I was with her, I know she'd say none of them weren't, and not know nessesarily if she's telling the truth, just because of the sole reason, that that "vibe" she just had for and around me, is just....no present, or not as "vibe'y" as it used to be. another problem i have yay....
today was pretty lame as well. woke up at like 2 and brown came over, we hacked for while, t came and chilled, left for what he said was an open house with some girl from montague, and was suppose to call me and drew up to go out to artibees but that never happend, he dissapeared, typical t i guess . w/e. chilled with brown fora while, were gunna go with nads(me and him,a nd possibly smolan) but that ended up getting screwed..owell. came over here, then brown said he was goin home so i chilled with steevo fora bit and now im here, bousts to go pass out in a matter of mintues.
i guess ive just got alot on my mind lately and just wanted to get it out.there so much to consider right now with everythign that I've got goin: The seniors are gone, but you knwo why im stressing about that now, me and natalie are....zig zagging i guess...not on track, the end of the year is coming up, goin to be a senior next year meaning graduating and going to college, natalies leaving bascially begginin of august prolly....dono whats going to happen their, but I can only guess...but screw all this, to much on my mind, I'm goin to bed, hopefully everyone else dosent have as many things stressing them out as me, congrats seniors if i dont mention it to you, goodnight