late night thoughts
I never realized how much living right next to a body of water would affect my life. I shouldn't have moved away - I don't think I was ready. However, that is precisely why I moved away.
Sometimes I think you have to make those moves in order to make change happen in other areas.
I just don't sleep well anymore. All I hear as I fall asleep is electricity running through the walls. I became so at peace with the rushing white noise outside my window that I need the sound now to fall asleep. To stay asleep.
Sometimes I get lucky and forget what it was like, but tonight as i was walking in my house I heard the sound of a train passing - a similar white noise, and something inside me perked up and thought "I'm home!". But just as quickly, I realized my mistake and the excitement turned to sadness.
so here i am, avoiding the pillow again because sleep isn't the same without the river's lullaby.
Sometimes I think you have to make those moves in order to make change happen in other areas.
I just don't sleep well anymore. All I hear as I fall asleep is electricity running through the walls. I became so at peace with the rushing white noise outside my window that I need the sound now to fall asleep. To stay asleep.
Sometimes I get lucky and forget what it was like, but tonight as i was walking in my house I heard the sound of a train passing - a similar white noise, and something inside me perked up and thought "I'm home!". But just as quickly, I realized my mistake and the excitement turned to sadness.
so here i am, avoiding the pillow again because sleep isn't the same without the river's lullaby.