Huh.....?
I had a really dumb idea about a week ago. I went to myspace's browse function, typed in my zip code, and made it search for females within ten miles of my zip code. I found one person who looked kinda like my type and one of her pictures was of her runescape character. So, I added her since she was attractive and obviously a nerd.
Next day, she messages me saying something like thanks for the add, and you are super cute! I respond thanking her and asking if she wanted to meet up and hang out. Not a date or anything like that, just a hangout maybe meeting at somewhere harmless like starbucks. She says something like maybe when i get to know you better. then we had maybe a total of ten more messages describing ourselves the last one ended in her telling me to call her so we could talk about getting together. I call her.
The first thing is notice is that she has an adorable southern accent. We talk for over an hour on my cell. htat's a good thing because I feel like I need to use some of my minutes. I have around 200 of my 300 minutes per 2 month period rollover every time. everything seems great and she invites me over to her "house" to watch the Full Metal Alchemist movie and to go see eragon with her on Saturday (meaning the day that has already begun in my timezone).
I go over to her house, she gives me a greeting hug, and we go and watch her movie in her house which I now find out is a trailer. The movie was brilliant. She kept moving in for kisses thart I really wasn;t ready to give her, and she seems very picky about what she wanted in each kiss, but she seemed to enjoy it enough because after each kiss she cuddled up against me and held my arm and hand with both of her hands. It felt nice, though I did not enjoy kissing her. I wasn't ready. It was far too awkward.
The movie finishes and everything seems fine with me and her, and as far as I could tell, she seemes to like me just fine. Her cellphone company changed her number, and she wasn;t able to give it to me before I left becuase we went to the tralier community's park to watch her sister and friend throw a football, and I left from there. She didn't bring her phone along.
So, as soon as I got home from our hanging out, I messaged er on myspace telling her that I had a good time and that I was looking forward to saturday.
The next morning, I got a message back saying " I'm sorry but i dont think that this is goin to work..The chemistry that i thought was there isn't, "
So, apparently this girl is batshit. She must think that there has to be no awkwardness when meeting a person for the first time or something. She's just nuts. Also, I guess her kisses were testing me, but to me an open mouth kiss is a sign of some form of commitment unless it is explicitly declared a test before or shorty after the kiss (preferably afterward so the kiss is more natural). However, I don't how to be a good kisser. I've only had had two girlfirends that really made out with me, and they both just LOVED having my tongue in their mouth because there were truly obsessed with me. One was so obsessed that after we broke up she bought the acne wash I used in high school because it smelled like me and cried herself to sleep. Needless to say, when I heard that, it scared the shit out of me.
If the kiss was the problem, I have no idea how to get better at doing that since girls like this one want perfection the first time. I can't very well have a friend just kiss me and give me pointers to get better. It'd be great if someone would do that, but it is not likely to happen. Also, I bet that kissing really depends on each girl as far as what they like. I know a few girls love lots of tongue and most hate too much tongue.
If I lacked passion, it's because I just met this girl, and I was a bit nervous, and apparently, rightfully so because of how much I was being judged.
Also, my vocabulary may have intimidated her too, but why is it my fault that other people don't know terms like "trite, antimetabole, metaphysical, surrealism, and projection of one's consciousness"?
Ok guys, now be honest with me. Am I rude, condescending, egotistical, or generally unpleasant to be around on an average day? Please no stroking my ego, I'd prefer advice that can make me as likable as possible. Not jsut for the sake of finding someone, but it could help in any job here I need to get along with people or persuade people. Since I'm pre-law, I will need to be more likable than I currently am.
I can safely say that my appearance had nothing to do with the incident above because I look pretty damn good right now, with shorter hair, a shaved face, and 10-15 pounds of weight loss. Also, you can even see the cheek bones in my face now. I like that. It makes me look more distinguished.