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I am tired.
I haven't had a day off in two weeks...not that I am saying babysitting and cleaning the inside of limos is necessarily HARD but I do spend a lot of time outside and I pretty much have something to do every second of the day. I have not gotten to see anyone which is probably good ( for my pocket I mean) because this has been a horrendously expensive summer.
(for those of you who don't know, I bought a camera a while ago...it hurt. Badly. But I love it a lot)
Anyway other than that I am just starting to stress a bit. I don't have much time left and I feel like there is so much I need to be prepared for...arg. I have to go to some lame luaua planning thing and I have to figure out what I am doing with Poptards because I have not been thinking about that enough at ALL. The only thing I know is that I want to see if I can use the shows to get donations for organizations I spent time with in El Salvador. Speaking of which, I STILL need to send out my pictures to everyone. BAH.
HOWEVER on a more awesome note I got into semester at sea...now I just have to book my cabin and I'm off. Holy shit.... I'm traveling tolike 10 different countries. I'm going to LIVE on a boat. I can't even believe it at all. Kyle will be there as well which will make it easier but I just hope I actually try to meet other people as well because I know easily I stick with the people I know rather than meeting new people.
I don't know if that fact that I am going has actually hit yet. Its bizarre. I never thought I would do anything like this.
**sigh** and I am strangely lonely. I definitely need attention and I need someone to focus my energy on. Whatever, it'll pass I guess. I just wish I wasn't always waiting for someone to waltz into my life because it never happens. And, yes, I know I shouldn't just wait, but I don't know what else to do. How do you go out and just find someone? I guess I missed that day of school.
Well I have a lot to think about...and I need some sleep.
Goodnight all.
I haven't had a day off in two weeks...not that I am saying babysitting and cleaning the inside of limos is necessarily HARD but I do spend a lot of time outside and I pretty much have something to do every second of the day. I have not gotten to see anyone which is probably good ( for my pocket I mean) because this has been a horrendously expensive summer.
(for those of you who don't know, I bought a camera a while ago...it hurt. Badly. But I love it a lot)
Anyway other than that I am just starting to stress a bit. I don't have much time left and I feel like there is so much I need to be prepared for...arg. I have to go to some lame luaua planning thing and I have to figure out what I am doing with Poptards because I have not been thinking about that enough at ALL. The only thing I know is that I want to see if I can use the shows to get donations for organizations I spent time with in El Salvador. Speaking of which, I STILL need to send out my pictures to everyone. BAH.
HOWEVER on a more awesome note I got into semester at sea...now I just have to book my cabin and I'm off. Holy shit.... I'm traveling tolike 10 different countries. I'm going to LIVE on a boat. I can't even believe it at all. Kyle will be there as well which will make it easier but I just hope I actually try to meet other people as well because I know easily I stick with the people I know rather than meeting new people.
I don't know if that fact that I am going has actually hit yet. Its bizarre. I never thought I would do anything like this.
**sigh** and I am strangely lonely. I definitely need attention and I need someone to focus my energy on. Whatever, it'll pass I guess. I just wish I wasn't always waiting for someone to waltz into my life because it never happens. And, yes, I know I shouldn't just wait, but I don't know what else to do. How do you go out and just find someone? I guess I missed that day of school.
Well I have a lot to think about...and I need some sleep.
Goodnight all.