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somewhere between the procrastination
and the homework
and the incessant forwards
and the friendships
and the nasty cafeteria food
and the calls to eachother complaining about crushes
somewhere between the phone calls to old friends
and the "i miss you's"
and the "i love you's"
and the "what are we doing tonight's"
somewhere between the classes
and the skipping classes
and the studying for tests
and the pretending to study for tests
and the downright not studying for tests
i forgot
i forgot was highschool is all about
i forgot what it meant to cry
i forgot that pretending to be happy doesn't make you happy
and that pretending to be smart doesnt make you smart
i forgot that you can't just forget the past in fear of the future
i forgot that you can't control falling in love
and that you can't make yourself fall in love
i learned that it's okay to mess up
and it's okay to ask for help
and it's okay to feel like crap
i learned it's okay to complain and whine to all your friends for a whole day
i learned that sometimes the things you want most you just can't have
i learned that the greatest things about high school isn't the parties or the drinking or the hook ups
it's the friendships which means taking chances
i learned that sometiems the things we want to forget are the things which we most need to talk about
i learned that letters from friends are the most important thing
and that sending cards to your friends makes you feel better
but basicially i just learned that my friends
both old and new
are the most important people in my world
and without them, i wouldn't be who i am today