Musings: A matter of faith
meteorology is a good nfluence on me sometimes. So I thought I would follow her example and try to write more. I am not a joiner. I like my own company and usually feel uncomfortasble around others even the people I like. I can take their company for sdo ling and then I want to go home, have some tea, read, listen to music or watch some t.v. ( I don't like people coming to my house so I go to theirs). And what does all this have to do with faith? Nothing and everything. Back when I was much, much younger I took conversion classes to become a Jew ( I did it for a girl which is why guys do almost all the things they do). I'm not going into details but her parents were strict and in order for me to see her I had to convert. And since I was young I said okay. After all Christ, all the apostles, and Paul wrre Jews. I could still claim Christ as Messiah which was okay by me. As it turned out her family wete a bunch of assholes. So I didn't gert the girl but I did get a love for Judaism and the Old Testament. It is something I try to share with my Christian brothers and sisters. My house church calls me their Old Testament guy. The problem comes when I really am an Old Testament guy readung Rashi, Ramban, and other Jewish commentaries instead of Mathew Henry, J. Vernon McGee,and other Christuasn commentaries ( I do read them but I try to read the Jewish commentaries first). And it ghives me a different insight and I think it strengthens my faith. I have tried sharing this and have runned into a wall time and time again. I'mokay when Ilink the Old and Nrw Testament but not when I bring a non-Christian viewpoint ( honestly I don't get it but I have come to keep things to myself that I have wanyed to share). I am pretty self-contained in almost everything and just wanted to shate sdomething that makes my faithh stronget. Sometimes it make me unhappy but then I wityhdraw into myself until I can feal with it.