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[brekex]

I refuse to define my sexuality for another because my sexuality is not defined... because sexuality rarely is defined, utterly and absolutely. Yes, of course, I have my tendencies, but I have also found myself outside of those tendencies. Those unexpected moments, those circumstances outside of my ill-perceived limits have defined me more than my

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[brekex]

You are very correct. The best way to do this is just to dive into it. But there are certain preparations that are necessary.

I'll share with you a story. I was invited to sit in an ayahuasca ceremony that was being conducted for the benefit of substance addicts, mostly heroin. The majority of these were first-timers. I was in the car on our way to the ceremony with the shaman and also with a sixteen year old kid (definitely his first time) who had a substance abuse problem. The kid said to the shaman, "I must admit that I am a little scared." The shaman turned around, looked him straight in the eyes and said, "You shouldn't be scared. You should be terrified."

The reason the shaman told him this is the same reason why I am sharing this with you. It is important to prepare oneself mentally... to have no illusions about what is coming. You must face your fears. The shaman was not being a jerk, he was planting a necessary seed.

As far as the dieta goes... I think that it is a good idea that you do not do this for now. Besides, I would strongly urge against taking the dieta without a guide or supervisor who knows damn well what he/she is doing. Furthermore, most of the plants for the dieta are native to the Peruvian Amazon and need to be fresh. If, later in your life, once you have known the ayahuasca, you decide that you do wish to go on the dieta, then you can save up and prepare for a pilgrimage to Peru. I myself will be doing this in a few years.

Due to the metabolic inhibitor in ayahuasca, there is a certain diet that you must enter for about two weeks before you sit in ceremony, and a few days after as well. This is more of a physiological necessity than any ritual preparation, though it is good to also take it as the latter. Certainly no alcohol or any other drug (however coffee in small amounts is fine). No pork and very little red meat, cutting out the red meat entirely a few days before the ceremony. Nothing spicy or overly condimented. Nothing that is fermented (this includes miso soup, which I once made the grave mistake of eating on the day of the ceremony... oh, boy). Limit the intake of dairy, also cutting it out entirely a few days before. Think like a plant... very little salt (it can null the effect) and very little sugar (it can amplify the effect). You do need your strength for the ceremony, though, so things like rice, beans fish and chicken are good. You do need to eat well, especially on the day of the ceremony, if even you will most likely end up vomiting most of it out, heh. But I re-iterate: no drugs of any kind, this includes medication, especially psychotropics. If you are on any sort of medication then you need to talk with whomever is running the ceremony beforehand.

Anyway, this is much simpler than it seems and in the end it is best both to prepare and to not make a big deal out of it. There is no real way of preparing for the experience entirely. In the end, keep in mind that despite its tremendous strength and power, ayahuasca is one of the least physically harmful substances.

Keep in mind that the Great Mother is very wise. She will only take you as far as you are prepared to go, she is very wise in knowing how far this is. This has nothing to do with how far you think that you WANT to go or even, perhaps, how far you may need to go (this is why ceremonies that last over various days are good). I know some people for whom it was all rainbows, flowers and butterflies, not even slight nausea. They were simply not prepared to enter into the depths and the Great Mother responded accordingly.

The most important thing to remember is that every barrier you put up, every condition you place for sitting in ceremony, is the ego's resistance mechanisms. Do not judge them or be upset by them. Merely observe them and let them pass. Send them off on their way and this will put you on your way.

If and when you do decide to go, hit me up a little before and I can give you a few more pointers. Perhaps we can communicate through email or message , if you prefer.

Much luck to you, Dorian.

[dorianrosen]

Yes, I´ll definitely want to send you a message before attending, especially if something comes up. Though I do feel really calm about the matter, for some reason only freebase DMT truly terrifies me, I know the active ingredient is the same in ayahuasca and I´ve watched some truly horrifying clips on this subject which have only deepened my fascination. It´s not some fluffy feel-good experience I´m after, the transformational promise seems deeply real in ayahuasca, that is what truly moves me.

I´ve never had any medications none whatsoever, and I don´t even like alcohol (though I do drink occasionally few times in a year), and red meat I can easily drop because I´m not that attached to carnivorous habits, so those are easily given up. Do you think spirulina is ok? I´m a huge fan of Healthforce spirulina, it´s one of my favorite foods and it has really nice effect on me too. I was thinking of spirulina, black and white rice and chicken to be my main sources of food the last weeks before attending ayahuasca ceremony.

And thank you, truly, for such a caring answer. I´m glad you deepened my understanding of dieta, brought some aspects of it into light which previously have been unknown to me.

It´s Mikko, my real name that is. But labels are silly, so Dorian is fine as well.