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Though I haven't written for maybe 4 years now, I thought that it might be time to again... even though I’ll probably end up not writing in it ever again.
So I had to say goodbye to Koki today, which is perhaps what triggered this entry. but goodbyes are soooo sad. it doesn’t really hit me til like 6 hours later that I’m never going to see this person again. it makes me so sad. Koki indirectly opened a lot of eyes this year it sucks he'e gone. I’m going to miss him so much.
Saying goodbye to him, whom I've only known one year made me realize, we only have ONE YEAR LEFT! It’s really kind of crazy. Every year something (usually a cause of someone) totally unexpected happens to me, I'm so curious what/who it’s going to be this you know? I’m finally really content with what’s going on with me right now, which means something’s gonna happen soon. That always seems to happen. Another car accident perhaps?
So anyways I have extremely high hopes for senior year. I’m just hoping that everyone unites and finally becomes friends. Probably not going to happen though. Or maybe it wont be people being friends, but becoming independent enough from your "group" of friends and being able to be friends with other "groups", as well as your group being accepting enough to accept other group members... does that make sense?
I was talking to Kerri (I think) about how OLD seniors seemed to us when we were freshman. Like we would turn to stone if we ever tried to talk to them without being spoken to first or something. It’s weird to think that that's US next year. It’s our LAST homecoming, last sport season, last time with everyone we’ve become SO dependent on these past 4 years. It’s so weird to think about.
So I had to say goodbye to Koki today, which is perhaps what triggered this entry. but goodbyes are soooo sad. it doesn’t really hit me til like 6 hours later that I’m never going to see this person again. it makes me so sad. Koki indirectly opened a lot of eyes this year it sucks he'e gone. I’m going to miss him so much.
Saying goodbye to him, whom I've only known one year made me realize, we only have ONE YEAR LEFT! It’s really kind of crazy. Every year something (usually a cause of someone) totally unexpected happens to me, I'm so curious what/who it’s going to be this you know? I’m finally really content with what’s going on with me right now, which means something’s gonna happen soon. That always seems to happen. Another car accident perhaps?
So anyways I have extremely high hopes for senior year. I’m just hoping that everyone unites and finally becomes friends. Probably not going to happen though. Or maybe it wont be people being friends, but becoming independent enough from your "group" of friends and being able to be friends with other "groups", as well as your group being accepting enough to accept other group members... does that make sense?
I was talking to Kerri (I think) about how OLD seniors seemed to us when we were freshman. Like we would turn to stone if we ever tried to talk to them without being spoken to first or something. It’s weird to think that that's US next year. It’s our LAST homecoming, last sport season, last time with everyone we’ve become SO dependent on these past 4 years. It’s so weird to think about.