Feelings about the BREAK UP
Unbelievably I am not too torn up about this break up and I don't really know why... Yesterday I was crying a little bit, but I think I was crying because I knew it was really over...I knew before like with the Heather thing...that we weren't going to make it much longer after that, so I basically did all of my breaking up sorrow at that time...I knew we were over, but it wasn't officially over yet. Know what I mean? I am actually pretty relieved about the whole thing... I knew deep down inside of me that David wasn't that good for me emotionally...He hurt me so much even before we started going out and I should've known not to get involved with him because of everything that happened...and people warned me...but I didn't listen...but I never would have forgave myself if I didn't try and go for it...and I learned a lot from David...because of all of the pain he put me through...as I always say
What does not kill us only makes us stronger...
and I am defiantly not dying because of this and I truly think that I am a better person because of all of this...Not only because I lost a "love", more like a lust, but I learned to always listen to my friends and never EVER take things like this out on them...so my BIGGEST apology goes to Allie...
Allie- I know you don't read my journal anymore because I guess that is how mad at me you are...but hun I am truly sorry and this whole thing was an enormous slap in my face when he did that to me again and again and again and I am and TRUELY sorry!!!
Well other than all of this...I am BORED OUT OF MY MIND!!! I have only two days left of being grounded but thats alright because I am doing something both of the days...Tomorrow I am going to my cousins house at like 3:00 and we probably won't be leaving until like midnight...Then on Sunday we are having people over, as usual, and I will be BORED!!! But everybody call me to do something this week!!!
Until we meet again...
~Brina
What does not kill us only makes us stronger...
and I am defiantly not dying because of this and I truly think that I am a better person because of all of this...Not only because I lost a "love", more like a lust, but I learned to always listen to my friends and never EVER take things like this out on them...so my BIGGEST apology goes to Allie...
Allie- I know you don't read my journal anymore because I guess that is how mad at me you are...but hun I am truly sorry and this whole thing was an enormous slap in my face when he did that to me again and again and again and I am and TRUELY sorry!!!
Well other than all of this...I am BORED OUT OF MY MIND!!! I have only two days left of being grounded but thats alright because I am doing something both of the days...Tomorrow I am going to my cousins house at like 3:00 and we probably won't be leaving until like midnight...Then on Sunday we are having people over, as usual, and I will be BORED!!! But everybody call me to do something this week!!!
Until we meet again...
~Brina