Why I wish I was single
So today's project is cleaning and clearing out the "office". We have a 3-bedroom apartment between my sister G, boyfriend C and I. C and I had been sharing a bedroom and the extra room is currently an office. But all our relationship problems are poisoning our relationship, the atmosphere in the house, and my ability to do my work. So my last ditch effort to save things is to move us all into separate bedrooms. Maybe having a physical space of my own will help me to create the mental space I need to take care of myself instead of taking care of him all the time. It's gonna be a lot of work though, because we weren't exactly neat first term.
Speaking of C's general incompetence, I asked him to bring home milk last night and he couldn't because his card was declined - for milk! He has no idea how his spending got so out of control. So of the three of us, I'm the only one who can actually afford to buy MILK. What the hell, family, what the hell? Just don't spend more than you make! How is that difficult? What's worse, both of them have parentals paying their rent for them and giving them money for expenses - and I don't. So how is it I'm the one with money? It's really, really, really stressing me out. And for C in particular - how can he be a supportive partner and help me deal with G, or with my many other reasons for stress, as he says he wants to, if he can't even keep his credit card debt under control when his grandmother essentially pays for everything for him!? ARG.
In much more exciting news, have found a cool roommate for VanCon. It's such a relief because not only was I not sure where I was going to stay, but, more importantly, I was worried I wouldn't have any friends there. But I'm excited now. No matter what other shitty shitty things are going on in my life. I am going to VanCon and will have fun. It's motivation to survive at least until summer. ;)
Of course when I told C this piece of good news, maybe the first genuinely good news in days, he says "That sounds sketchy". Thanks for your support.
Speaking of C's general incompetence, I asked him to bring home milk last night and he couldn't because his card was declined - for milk! He has no idea how his spending got so out of control. So of the three of us, I'm the only one who can actually afford to buy MILK. What the hell, family, what the hell? Just don't spend more than you make! How is that difficult? What's worse, both of them have parentals paying their rent for them and giving them money for expenses - and I don't. So how is it I'm the one with money? It's really, really, really stressing me out. And for C in particular - how can he be a supportive partner and help me deal with G, or with my many other reasons for stress, as he says he wants to, if he can't even keep his credit card debt under control when his grandmother essentially pays for everything for him!? ARG.
In much more exciting news, have found a cool roommate for VanCon. It's such a relief because not only was I not sure where I was going to stay, but, more importantly, I was worried I wouldn't have any friends there. But I'm excited now. No matter what other shitty shitty things are going on in my life. I am going to VanCon and will have fun. It's motivation to survive at least until summer. ;)
Of course when I told C this piece of good news, maybe the first genuinely good news in days, he says "That sounds sketchy". Thanks for your support.