My
deancasbigbang rough draft is finished! I'm having a friend read it over before I submit it, but that should be any time now. I know no one is going to read this draft, but for some reason I can't fathom sending anything away with no outside input whatsoever.
The thing is a monster at nearly 25k words. I've decided not to upgrade to the full big bang despite being well over the word count because I'd rather post in August than October. Partially it's because I'd like my fic to be read before it's completely jossed by Show's return, but mostly I know that in October I'll be freaking out about my thesis and completely unable to have fun abut fandom stuff. Better to get it done now while I have some time to actually enjoy the process.
This is by far the longest single piece of writing I've ever done, and I feel quite accomplished. It's far from perfect and I have a lot of editing to do on my own before I burden some poor unsuspecting beta with it, but I'm proud of finishing it. Honestly, for awhile there I was sure I wouldn't be able to. Thanks to cheerleaders
dress_myself_up and
gwendolynd though, I managed.
I don't think it's the best thing I've written. I have no perspective whatsoever, so I can't even figure out if it's a decent piece of fic. That will be a poor beta's job, sadly for them. But it was a great deal of work and I have never stayed motivated on a strictly optional piece of writing this long before in my life. In the past, when I've started a long project I've run out of steam midway though and just mentally finished it (as opposed to putting it on paper).
I have ambitious plans for the editing including a fair amount of necessary expansion and MORE PORN but I'm okay with it as it stands.
Yay me! I think everyone else doing the bang on my flist is in the full bang so probably not panicking yet, but guys, it can be done!
In celebration, the header:
Title: If you ever get close to a human and human behaviour (be ready to get confused)
Pairing/Characters: Dean/Castiel, Sam
Rating: R
Word count: 25k
Summary: In the weeks following the almost-Apocalypse, the men who fought to save humanity realize they have no idea how to be human themselves. While Dean Winchester struggles to make a place for himself in small town Indiana, his brother and his former guardian angel watch from a safe distance. Sam finds himself literally and painfully caught between his old life and Hell, while Castiel - fully human for the first time - copes with freedom, frailty and an intense new set of emotions. Reluctant to reveal their new weaknesses to Dean, they hover around the edges of his new life. That is, until they sense that something darker and more sinister is watching Dean as well.
Notes: Written for the
deancasbigbang . Title from Bjork’s “Human Behaviour.”
Now I'm just scared no artist will want me. :(