Update
Hello everyone. How is everybody doin? Well, its November, Bush is our president once again(GO BUSH), Turkey Day is around the corner,I am listening to Christmas music already. Wow, i am soo weird :( But everybody still loves me. But i dont love me.I feel a change in me, and not like a HUGE change, but alil baby change. Sometimes, i act like i am not myself, i dont know why, its just how i am. I admit there is something bothering me, but i dont wanna bring it up cause yea, it would be the best. I guess its just something I want and have always had, but like I cant hold it like i used to and play with it and everything else. But i knwo that this certain thing that is bothering me,is always there for me and cares about me, but i miss it too much to just let go. But hey, I gotta live strong right? Tings will be better i promised myself that. I think i just gotta have time to think and just chill ya know? I have awesome friends and i have realized i gotta spend more time with them. B/c its sad knowing that they will be gone and they are leaving me :( You cant do this to me you guys, why do you have to go? Why do you have to leave me :( Please dont leave me, please dont go. I dont wanna lose you guys at all, please I beg of you.