here goes nothing.
Well, first of all I got married. YAY me. Yeah let me tell you one thing. everyone has said to me everyday sience i was little that once you get married everything changes. And of corse I thought I would be the acception. turns out im the rule. It really is amazing. I think that we have gotten into more fights in the past 4 months than the 2 plus years before we got married. The weirdest part is that they are over the most rediculous things like laundry and toothpaste and beer and really dumb shit. And whats even weirder is that although we fight a lot more now I feel like I love him more than I ever have loved anyone in my entire life, that waking up without him would suck, and I think back on the days that he was gone and I just cant think about how different life would be if he got everything situated before he left. I honestly just hope everything works out the way it is suposed to forever.
I think I have a problem I can never have something forever. I like get tired of it or it gets tired of me before too long and im off to the next thing...
I miss it more than I want to tell anyone, Actually I am doing that other thing in hopes that I can get it back. I miss the feeling, the happiness it brought me. I wonder why I was not happy then. I wish I could have realized everything I had. Hell I even had someone to share all the experiences with.
I love you and I thank you for doing all that you did to keep us alive!!
Its like you brought the pictures out right at the right time, why do you do this to me...
someday I feel like we can be friends. I just have to see how it is when I run into you. maybe its all in my head or its the fact that I dream about you almost every single day.
I think I have a problem I can never have something forever. I like get tired of it or it gets tired of me before too long and im off to the next thing...
I miss it more than I want to tell anyone, Actually I am doing that other thing in hopes that I can get it back. I miss the feeling, the happiness it brought me. I wonder why I was not happy then. I wish I could have realized everything I had. Hell I even had someone to share all the experiences with.
I love you and I thank you for doing all that you did to keep us alive!!
Its like you brought the pictures out right at the right time, why do you do this to me...
someday I feel like we can be friends. I just have to see how it is when I run into you. maybe its all in my head or its the fact that I dream about you almost every single day.