And the waiting is over...

[brebandi5]

So in about 12 hours or less, I'll see his face.
In about 12 hours or less I'll see him for the first time in almost five months.
I always wonder how different he will look.
I always wonder how different I look to him.
I also always wonder if it will ever be the same.
This time I know it won't be.
I know I've changed and I'm sure he's changed too.
I've waited for this day for five months but now the waiting is over and it's all lost.
He asked why I'm throwing away all of our dreams.
Our dreams never really included each other hun.
My dream was to go to school and graduate then go on to dental or medical school.
Your dream was to create a life, a career for yourself that you could be proud of.
I hope he knows how proud I am.
But it shouldn't matter what I think or what anyone else thinks.
He says all his happiness relies on me.
That's too much pressure for one person to handle.
You have to make yourself happy.
I'm still excited to see him.
I know I'm doing the right thing, I just wish I could make him see its the right thing.
Here we go... 12 hours and counting.