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I miss Jeremiah. I can't even imagine being without him. He's become such a huge part of my life. What am I going to do if I don't get to talk to him every night? I really hope he chooses to give this another chance. I'm so tired of this headache. Mandy said she though it was a migraine. I've never had them before, why would I start having them now? It would rock so much if I could leave early tonight. I'm working all weekend. Six hours today, tomorrow, and on Sunday. Then I work 4-10 Monday. Killer. I guess it's better then having to work so much during the week. I haven't been to church in so long. I feel like I need it. I had chips for supper, I think that was a bad decision. I'm feeling worse then I did at school today. I can feel my bones... like more then usual. I wonder if Jennifer and I are still going to the mall tomorrow. I want to go to sleep. Throw up and just go to sleep. Other then wanting to see Jeremiah that's all I can think about.
The more I think about lunch today the more upset I get. I don't think he knows that some of the things he says to me are really hurtful. I hope he liked my note today. I was just talking to Mandy about my headache and a lady walked up and said to try chocolate. I told her I'd had it for 2 or 3 days and nothing was helping. She said it sounded like stress. I told her it was and I couldn't get rid of my stress. I told her it was a vicious cycle and she said "yep, that's life." Fan-freaking-tastic. Anyway, I'm tired of everyone in my business. I don't want to act like a bitch to my friends but they don't understand what goes on. When they say something about Jeremiah and I tell them I don't want to talk about it they should just drop it. I know they just want to look out for me because they love me... but still. I just want space right now. I don't even feel like going to lunch anymore. I just want to stay in the room. Anna Bailey just came in with two of her friends. I miss being carefree and clueless.
The more I think about lunch today the more upset I get. I don't think he knows that some of the things he says to me are really hurtful. I hope he liked my note today. I was just talking to Mandy about my headache and a lady walked up and said to try chocolate. I told her I'd had it for 2 or 3 days and nothing was helping. She said it sounded like stress. I told her it was and I couldn't get rid of my stress. I told her it was a vicious cycle and she said "yep, that's life." Fan-freaking-tastic. Anyway, I'm tired of everyone in my business. I don't want to act like a bitch to my friends but they don't understand what goes on. When they say something about Jeremiah and I tell them I don't want to talk about it they should just drop it. I know they just want to look out for me because they love me... but still. I just want space right now. I don't even feel like going to lunch anymore. I just want to stay in the room. Anna Bailey just came in with two of her friends. I miss being carefree and clueless.