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Jeremiah just sent a message to my phone asking for me to get back on-line for a second. When I got on I said hey and he asked if I'd erased the stuff off my camera that he and the boys did. I said no and he asked if I'd watched it. I told him yes then he didn't really say anything so I asked him if that was all he wanted. He said no so I asked if he was going to tell me. He said he thought he might regret his decision. So here we go again. We ended the conversation with him seeming irritated with me. I do not get it. I don't care if I have to wait for him. I think he's worth it. I don't mind giving it time. I wish he could understand what this does to me. If he doesn't want to be with me he needs to break my heart once then let me move on. Twice, I've been ready to move on. Then he gives me a glimmer of hope and I get pulled right back in. The only think that keeps me going is the thought that we could get back what we had. If we can get past this we could be fine. I feel like every time he talks to me he has to bring up that I "made him look like an a**hole." I truthfully don't understand why he can't just get over it. So I need to put on a happy face for everyone tomorrow so no one thinks that Jeremiah hurt my feelings. *note the sarcasm*