In a slump... and trying to find myself lol
[emo(ish?)rant] I feel like life is in a bit of a rutt lately.
Work is boring and no longer as fun. I still enjoy the atmosphere of the place, but I feel like I'm expected to perform miracles sometimes :( I don't think I suit being a creative designer cos I just can't meet the challenge... seems basic layout and typesetting work is more my thing but I don't want to let myself or my boss down by giving up! So I keep on trying as depressing as it is.
As soon as I can start sewing I think my attitude will pick up. I need to get my mind off the depressing stuff lol. I am soooooo looking forward to travelling for a month, gotta get away and clear my head!
When I get to this kinda position at work I start to pine for working overseas again, although if I'm a halfrate designer what the hell can I achieve in Japan XD
I wonder what kind of jobs I could get over there...
I really truly want to live and work there one day, but I hate thinking about leaving my family and so many of my friends. I enjoy sewing and cosplaying with everyone here that I wonder what will I achieve in life if I don't move on to something else... I can't keep doing a boring job with stable income that supports my hobby can I? I suppose it is a social hobby... but I feel like I might be expected to give it up and get married or something XDDD (by my parents)
Gahhhhh, sorry for ranting about my problems, everyone has them, but I need somewhere to vent, no internet at home yet, so work is the only option, and I think you guys would probably understand :)
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Work is boring and no longer as fun. I still enjoy the atmosphere of the place, but I feel like I'm expected to perform miracles sometimes :( I don't think I suit being a creative designer cos I just can't meet the challenge... seems basic layout and typesetting work is more my thing but I don't want to let myself or my boss down by giving up! So I keep on trying as depressing as it is.
As soon as I can start sewing I think my attitude will pick up. I need to get my mind off the depressing stuff lol. I am soooooo looking forward to travelling for a month, gotta get away and clear my head!
When I get to this kinda position at work I start to pine for working overseas again, although if I'm a halfrate designer what the hell can I achieve in Japan XD
I wonder what kind of jobs I could get over there...
I really truly want to live and work there one day, but I hate thinking about leaving my family and so many of my friends. I enjoy sewing and cosplaying with everyone here that I wonder what will I achieve in life if I don't move on to something else... I can't keep doing a boring job with stable income that supports my hobby can I? I suppose it is a social hobby... but I feel like I might be expected to give it up and get married or something XDDD (by my parents)
Gahhhhh, sorry for ranting about my problems, everyone has them, but I need somewhere to vent, no internet at home yet, so work is the only option, and I think you guys would probably understand :)
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