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I can't seem to find a happy medium here. I eat near nothing or I eat like someone's going to steal all my food. The last few days I've been fucking living for my next meal or my next chance to eat without ridicule. It's pathetic, and I'm ashamed to the point of this being hard to admit to, even in a god damn blog that hardly anyone reads... I should have control over this, and I don't seem to right now. It's disgusting to me.
I can't help but think of punishments at this point.
I can't help but think of punishments at this point.