here comes my rant of the night....get ready
yeah im whooped. last nite was fun ;) and so was friday haha. wow friday was insane.
i got to talk to *you* friday night...over all it was a good talk i think..but it still wasnt great .. i know ive done a lot of things that im not so proud of..but then again you have to. yeah ive changed a lot but so have you...ive heard you have gotten better (&) cooler. but i havent really saw it for myself. yeah, i miss you. i still care about you. but im not so sure about a lot of things. i hate that we arent okay, and have to find out about eachother from other people. i have to admit, im rather scared of you. lol. seeing you the other night, wow. i didnt really know what to do. im not saying i want to be with you again...just that i miss how it was, how you were, how i was. but it all seems out of grasp. i dont have a problem with you anymore...and i ::think:: you dont have a problem with me either?? but who knows. you did hurt me really bad and thats a huge reason of why i am the way i am right now....it has a TON to do with you. and the other part is just friends and wanting a litl fun. i know your not so happy with it...but what can ya do. cuz i dont really know what to do either.
im really confused. hmph.
so, on a lighter note...bryan called me...were not getting together. we both decided it wld mess things up between everyone and us. o well. i really miss wut i had like 4 months ago. i mean yeah talking to a lot of guys is always fun :) but i just miss always having that (((one))) person for you. i miss it a whole lot.
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i got to talk to *you* friday night...over all it was a good talk i think..but it still wasnt great .. i know ive done a lot of things that im not so proud of..but then again you have to. yeah ive changed a lot but so have you...ive heard you have gotten better (&) cooler. but i havent really saw it for myself. yeah, i miss you. i still care about you. but im not so sure about a lot of things. i hate that we arent okay, and have to find out about eachother from other people. i have to admit, im rather scared of you. lol. seeing you the other night, wow. i didnt really know what to do. im not saying i want to be with you again...just that i miss how it was, how you were, how i was. but it all seems out of grasp. i dont have a problem with you anymore...and i ::think:: you dont have a problem with me either?? but who knows. you did hurt me really bad and thats a huge reason of why i am the way i am right now....it has a TON to do with you. and the other part is just friends and wanting a litl fun. i know your not so happy with it...but what can ya do. cuz i dont really know what to do either.
im really confused. hmph.
so, on a lighter note...bryan called me...were not getting together. we both decided it wld mess things up between everyone and us. o well. i really miss wut i had like 4 months ago. i mean yeah talking to a lot of guys is always fun :) but i just miss always having that (((one))) person for you. i miss it a whole lot.
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