So tired but i cannot bring myself to sleep
I cant sleep for the life of me. Ive been up since 2:00. I miss my valerie. Its so easy to fall asleep next to her. I feel really at ease like nothing else really matters. Its a really good feeling. She had a day with the ladies =) im glad. She watched Dawsons Creek ewwww hahaha just kidding. It gave me a chance to read a book. My mom is pressuring me to get a job but i dont want to. I want to be able to see valerie this summer. A job just wont let me do that i already know. She works a lot and its either from morning to midday or midday to evening. So any job i get im sure i will only be able to see her maybe 2 or 3 times a week. Its just not going to happen. Maybe ill work at home and clean n shit and just do that till school starts. Then its alright. Im really attached to her.. more than i think i have ever been. Its not that clingy attached though. Its a good attached like i think that this is really gonna work out. She is an amazing person. So beautiful and smart. I honestly am in awe at how i managed to reel in something so amazingly out of this world. We both are excited for our tattoos, only 5 more months. Im sure we will still be going out then. I pray this isnt just a stupid highschool romance. Its too good. Too good to just fall apart. Well im sitting here and all i can think in bed or in a chair is her so im at a loss as of what i should do. I want to take benadryl but i dont wanna sleep in so that i will miss out on time with my lil lady. K im goin to sleep...hopefully....soon....